Chapter 294: Deal With When It Comes
’Ugh, what use is it thinking about all these? Why am I having this kind of thought anyway? He’s always just thinking about me. What am I getting scared of? Or am I being possessive of him right now? I want him to be just mine in the past, present, and the future. Isn’t that quite too much? Am I becoming obsessive?’ Arabella hated how her thoughts were going.
Ferdinand’s past was his. All she could do was accept it. But his present and future, that was what she could be part of.
’Ferdinand said he never got married nor had children so that’s it. I’ll believe that as the truth. There’s no use doubting it because some of his memories got destroyed. Raymond and Alwin thought so too so it must be a fact. If there’s something important Ferdinand lost memories of and would bother us in the future, I would deal with it then.’
Arabella rid herself of negative and doubtful thoughts. All that matters for now, was Ferdinand was opening up to her. He was finally being honest about a lot of things he never did in her previous life.
’Liking someone sure is hard. Now that I know I like him much more than I thought, both positive and negative feelings come to me.’
People do get greedy. The more happiness and love you experience, the more you want to hold onto such happiness.
Now that she knows he was someone important to her, insecurity, doubts, and fears of losing him to someone else are also beginning to creep into her mind.
Once you realize you treasure something, you begin to fear losing it. She had lost everything once. She doesn’t want that to happen ever again.
She wanted to hold onto this Ferdinand who treasures and loves her.
She wanted to make him complete hers that she was even beginning to have fears of him getting snatched away. Especially after that time when Carmella tried to seduce him and he intentionally made her jealous to see her reaction.
It was no wonder Ferdinand gets jealous and insecure easily. It was because he treasures her so much that his fears of losing her were also strong. She was beginning to understand his jealousy and insecurity more.