Chapter 280: Let’s Live Here Together
[I never want to see her like that again. Her hands, her face, her whole body. Everything was cold. She was not breathing. Her heart was not beating. It was as if she had already died. I felt such an immense sense of loss I have never experienced before. My chest ached so much but I didn’t know what to do. This is the first time I’ve felt such fear and fury inside me. I don’t want to lose her no matter what. I don’t want to feel that despair, that helplessness again. I thought I was going to go crazy. If she didn’t wake up, I might have lost myself and gone berserk. I’ll do everything in my power so she won’t be in such a situation again.]
It had been a few minutes since Alwin left and Ferdinand had just been holding her in his arms. He hasn’t said a single word and just hugged her, feeling her warmth and listening to her heartbeat.
His embrace was a bit too tight it hurt but Arabella did her best to bare with it.
Arabella understood he must be traumatized after everything that happened so she just held him too and stroked his hair and back.
She understood the feeling, the despair. The feeling of seeing someone so precious to you turn from a warm living being to a cold corpse. She had never forgotten it even now.
The day Fermin’s human body died in her arms, was the day she counted herself dead as well. She thought she had lost her son forever. It was such a devastating feeling.
And not just Fermin, both Ferdinand and Icarus died right in front of her. She had not forgotten those yet as well. It was never pleasant.
"Arabella," Ferdinand finally spoke. "Don’t leave me alone. If you are going to leave, take me with you."
’Is he telling me we should die together if I would die anyway? I already told him last time this is no good. If we have children, someone has to live to raise our children.’