Chapter 246: I Am Doing This For Me
In her past life, Arabella ceased being friends with Andrew. The friendship they once had didn’t need to be revived again since it would do no good to both of them now.
They were both married and they were each other’s spouses’ greatest insecurities. It was better for them to not be friends than cause the failure of each other’s marriage.
[It’s my fault after all. It’s because I’m so weak and react too much every time it was related him.] Ferdinand gritted his teeth. [If she regrets this someday, I have to prepare myself for what would happen and take responsibility.]
’That wasn’t what I wanted to say.’
"I’m not doing this simply because of you. I am also doing this for me. For my own peace of mind. So you don’t have to blame yourself or anything. I simply thought this was for the best so you don’t have to worry about it, alright?" Arabella clarified so Ferdinand would not overthink again. He was burdening himself with everything.
She thought letting him hear their conversation would help him understand everything between her and Andrew had indeed ended. But look at him finding points to worry about instead.
’Should I reward him now, after all? Maybe, he would cheer up a bit.’
"Aren’t you happy that I ended everything with him? You clearly heard we both no longer plan on speaking or meeting with each other, right?"
"Yes. Of course, I am happy. It just makes me worry that maybe, you are hurting deep inside for letting go of a person once dear to you," Ferdinand admitted.
"I am not hurting since he was no longer dear to me. For me, he was just a person I used to know. Like the people of Lobelius for instance. I would wish for their happiness too just as I wished happiness for him."
She wanted to make him understand it was not something she specifically wished only because it was Andrew.