Chapter 25: Like A Normal Person
[Was Alwin nervous because of this? If Her Majesty is pregnant, a child from His Majesty would be powerful. Her Majesty’s body could be in danger. If something happens to her while the Emperor was away, Alwin would be the one to blame since His Majesty assigned him to keep her safe while he was gone.]
Arabella raised a brow. In her previous life, there were no problems with her pregnancy. Alwin didn’t check on her and her son until she gave birth.
’Hmm. If something happens to me while Ferdinand was away, Alwin would have to take responsibility for it?’ Arabella had a naughty thought. ’Should I make trouble for Alwin?’
If she caused a rift between Ferdinand and Alwin now, maybe Alwin would leave sooner.
If Alwin was no longer by Ferdinand’s side, she could escape as long as she finds a secluded location she could live in or disguise herself as someone else.
Arabella thought of hurting herself the way she did in her past life to get rid of people she didn’t want by her side. She could pretend to have been ignored by Alwin instead of getting protected by him.
However, it would also implicate Rendell who was her main guard so she cast the thought aside.
Moreover, she didn’t feel like hurting this young body of hers. In her previous life, she didn’t hesitate to hurt her body to get what she wanted because she was desperate.
The physical pain she felt was nothing compared to what she felt when she lost her child. Further, she soon didn’t dislike the pain since it made her hate for Ferdinand grow even stronger.
But this time, she was not in a dire situation. It hasn’t happened yet. She still had a lot of choices.
Arabella also felt bad for dragging innocent people with her plans again. She didn’t want to be burdened with more guilt and regret and more lives than she already does.