Chapter 127: Anger With a Mix Of Desire
Is it possible to feel something so deep and crazy along the lines of anger and desire? Like a storm brewing your insides and then... it explodes and you do the complete opposite. Every muscle aches, but not the same ache as your heart does, that is more profound, every beat is like a loud beat of a drum. And don’t get me started with the heat... it burns... the tempest of anger and the chaotic sensual feeling that makes your insides twist.
It felt like a dream... my lips on his and I cannot stop myself, I haven’t realized how much I missed the feel of it until now... how much every cell in my body awakens, it felt too good... I want to be angry, I want to put a stop to this and push him off but at the same time I didn’t want the connection to end. What made it far more intense was when he kissed me back with just the right amount of passion and I began to breathe... my heart is slamming loudly more than ever.
The intensity with which he kissed me was so potent and with every movement I wanted to melt, there was just so much longing and emotion... emotions I cannot keep up with. His tongue worked like magic in my mouth bringing more further to a mouth-watering kiss.
I want it to last forever.
But with my eyes closed all I could think about was that memory, it kept intruding on everything... the same scene, the same image I want to just forget and let it all be damn... but I cannot, it was like that very day it was branded to haunt me until the end, and the more I thought about it... the more the pain came until it eventually swallow me whole and the darkness came forth.
I was already pulling away from him, from his lips, touch, and everything that will rid me of him. I need to use my brain and not my weak heart, it’s too faint to hold anything. So I remained still keeping my eyes leveled with our breaths echoing in the chambers, nothing said... no words and I preferred it.
"Ava"
gods his voice... I don’t want to hear it because it struck me too much to my body and make me want to hear more, not hearing it for a month made it feel like I would lose my mind.
Even now I go crazy just by hearing it, my body goes crazy and my heart goes crazy too.