SILVER-HEART

I turned on my bed, still rivaling my thoughts, sleep was the last thought on my mind, and staying in bed wasn’t helping either. So I sat up and a breath released from me. What have I done? Did I really kiss William, surely there was nothing to be shameless about. We were sort of engaged right but still...

I groaned, gripping my head like I was about to lose it, maybe I’m losing it! I can’t stop it from messing with my brain, the scene kept recreating in my head and it was already giving me a headache. Was I disrespectful? Did he like it? Like it? I blushed. How on earth am I supposed to know if he likes it or not? I haven’t even seen his face. He probably thinks I’m unabashed!

This is not helping at all! My mind was already playing the possible reply if I see him tomorrow. Chills engulfed my body.

"Your token of gratitude, Ava" he would say looking down at me, and his aura, dear gods, why were they making me shake?! "A bit shameless isn’t it?" tilting his head to the side. "You are allowed to have your way with me..." He leans toward me and I just remain frozen in my spot. "But I cannot?"

A hot chill ran through my body and I quickly shook my head to get rid of the image before I imagined something way worse, my cheeks were already overheated, and I suddenly felt hot! I came off my bed and panting holding my chest, I needed some air.

So I rushed to the doors... This was the first time I’m actually thinking of going out of my chambers on my own. Can I even open this gigantic door? I got the answer to my question when I was just an inch away from it and the doors automatically opened. I stood frozen in my spot watching as the doors spread open like someone did it, but I saw no one so I wondered how, but the only answer I got was ’Magic’

I still don’t understand how magic works... but I knew for certain it can be used for anything.

I took a deep breath, eager to get some air. My windows didn’t have a balcony and just opening them wouldn’t suffice, or it was just an inner desire wanting to just go outside and feel the breeze against my face for real, I miss that feeling and I really need it right now.

I wandered the broad hallways with lit candles against the wall at every turn making it easier for me to see my path. I tried to recall every turn I took. It appeared trying to observe every place I walked whenever I trekked with Elvenia was finally useful. I didn’t feel like I was lost, well not entirely but I could definitely like I was going somewhere, the dining hall or the library perhaps?