Chapter 510: Eyes On Me
I don’t want to have this talk, I’m already having an annoying day. Adding fuel to my mood would make me explode any minute. The strings woven together are tugging for a desperate removal. This conservation will be the catharsis it needs.
"It’s nothing," I forced out. "Can we not talk about it? I was just being paranoid"
"Something like that doesn’t mean you’re paranoid, Em"
"Right," I hung my bag on my shoulder and grabbed my jacket. "So what if the entire room was remodeled? That’s just it"
"You know this is the closest to any contact in the past year"
I stopped instantly at his words, and a moment of silence passed before I leaned against the wall. "Like I said it’s nothing" I murmured, the shift in my tone evident, more overpowered by the storming emotions about to crawl out of me. It’s like a can of worms has been opened.
I don’t want to talk about this. Please. My heart was already racing and a hollow feeling came back, one that made this shell the loudest than I could handle. I rub my thumb against the necklace but I don’t feel anything. Just the pain and loneliness slipping back in through the wall I had caged myself in.
"Em?"
"The bond, Grayson..." my voice broke, and I leveled my eyes so that no one would see me about to come apart. I was thankful enough that this particular hallway was empty at the moment. "It’s weaker," I sighed. "So even if it is, it doesn’t mean anything"
Silence came between us but my heart remained loud with all the surpassed emotions eating me from the inside out. I applied more pressure to the pendant.
"How are you feeling?" he asked, his voice laced with worry and regret. I don’t blame him, I’m just too devastated by the simplest crack in composure, it’s hard to keep up a brave face all the time, especially around my loved ones, I don’t want to be in constant pain. They would hurt more.