Chapter 506: Invite The Pain
EMMA
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"What will become of us now, Dace?" I asked, each word feeling like the earth’s gravity was pressing down on me. Speaking created a tightening sensation in my chest, and my head throbbed with pain. The voices in the dagger plagued me, reminding me of what could have been, what I could have had. The baby’s cries echoed endlessly. This blade, connected to the dead, had become a way for me to seek closure for something I could never truly have.
I knew I should give Hayden back the dagger, it’s messing with my head each passing day but I found it hard to let go. I needed closure.
I brought my eyes back to Dace, he stood motionless, his blank golden hazel eyes just stared back at me and I couldn’t feel anything from them, not even a spark. I locked my emotions from him so I could keep the disgust to myself of feeling pain for that monster. I don’t want him to feel that, to have him know I feel regret for killing Luther.
I’m more disgusted with myself for constantly thinking about him. The sire bond was merciless, not allowing me to grieve properly, and I’m damned for feeling this way against my will. Even after his death, I’m still dancing to his tune.
Was this your final gift to me Luther? To ruin me beyond comprehension? Now I understood why he smiled at me before life drained from his eyes.
"We’re like two chemicals that are forced to mix now," I said. "What’s your thought on this?"
His silence told me there was no answer to this, I don’t have the answer too. I know I’m playing with fire at the tip of my fingertips but I asked anyway because I still didn’t want to believe I had truly lost everything.
"How did you feel when you heard the news about the baby?"
"You deserve better," he answered instead of my original question.