Chapter 277: Why Did The gods Make Us This Way?
DACE
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I wanted to go back, every fiber of my body was roaring at me to do so, it took every bit of control I had to leave her out there, I mentally cursed myself to oblivion for doing such... my fist tucked together and my teeth clenched with my canines almost dropping.
Why would she let me leave her out there when she knew she can’t bear it? When she knew us being apart is like teasing a storm to happen, I felt like my heart was sinking, and my nose fuzzy because I was unable to smell her scent, her sweat scent that takes my brain completely, and just taking a whiff of it was enough to make me run mad, drunk in its essence and now I felt like I would literally lose my marbles if I don’t take in her scent.
I knew she still blamed herself for what happened between Grayson and Emilia but it wasn’t her fault at all... I knew why she was doing this too... turns out my female understood me better than myself, she was able to tell I wanted to talk with Emilia, and being by her I can’t do that, but I didn’t wanna admit it because I knew she would blame herself for it.
And I hated it... I hated it when she loses her smile so suddenly when the light in her forest green eyes goes away when she feels pain for I feel everything she feels, I knew she would be heartbroken if I didn’t go to Emilia that was why I agreed to. That was the only reason...
It wasn’t her plea because it was futile to me, I only left her because I didn’t want her blaming herself for things she can’t control, she’s a sweet innocent girl and I knew she would choose others’ pain over her own. I knew she didn’t want me to leave and I could feel her fear, but yet she...
That was why when I blurred away, I waited and watched her until she was close to civilization. I didn’t immediately leave in search of Emilia, I needed to know my baby girl was fine until I did and was safe.
She stood there for a minute and I knew the cold was back to her, she was shivering now and I hated it but I was thankful she had extra layers of clothes. But that doesn’t mean I don’t wanna rush to her side and keep her warm, because I really wanted to, I just kept myself in check as I gripped the tree branch tightly.