BLOOD LEGACIES

GRAYSON

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I have never felt pain like this before... to the point I couldn’t breathe. It felt like my chest was wringing from an unruly pain that made my insides wanna pulverize. I couldn’t bear to be in the same room with her the moment she uttered those words to my face. I just have to leave or else my most vulnerable side will show, maybe she has already seen it and chooses to mock me with it.

What was I seriously thinking? I made a big mistake thinking there was something more, I thought she perhaps feels the same connection with me but I was wrong, I might as well have been lying to myself, I was just a sexual impulse for her, she has gotten what she wanted. What was I exactly thinking? Having sex with a werelion when I knew it was doing me more harm than good. I let my emotions and the bizarre attraction I have for her take over me, I let the unquenchable need I had for her consume me, led me on, and let me do something there was no return to.

The feel of her body, her moans as she called my name, it haunts me right now, I have never been so infatuated with someone before, but Emilia, she awoke a dominant sensation within me and wants me wanna ignore my very beliefs and just have her, just be there and think of nothing else, not until she broke me, both mentally and physically. All I could do was regret...

I crossed a line and now I was mentally suffering because of it. She lied and both discarded me... I knew without a doubt that she knew about this mark I had and yet she... My teeth clenched hard, I don’t know if I should be angry or hurt, maybe I was both. But the more I focus on my anger the more I wanna turn back, walk into that house and kiss her senseless.

There was definitely something wrong with me, I felt like my chest was getting tugged. I chose to ignore it as I walked further and further away from that cottage house, I didn’t look back... I just kept walking but the more my body screamed at me and I knew going back there would only mean rejection, she would hurt me again for whatever reason she has and I don’t want that.

Because ’pain’ was the last thing I wanna experience, because back there it felt like I would die from just her words, that was how much she broke me.

I walked long enough... for hours, that cottage was deep within the forest, and finally, I was able to set my eyes on the road, but I kept walking, this was definitely gonna be a long one, along with my buzzing thoughts weren’t helping at all.

It was a few hours again and I finally spotted my house, seems like I was back to civilization and reality, because how the fuck am I gonna explain my absence? I wasn’t so sure my dad would welcome the fact I slept with a werelion, it was messed up even for me because I have my beliefs, do I even know what that is anymore?