Chapter 186: Introspections
EMMA
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I know I should stop thinking about it, I know I should let it go, I know I should when Dace told me the new guy was nothing but human and it was just me being paranoid. But my body was betraying me to the point that I couldn’t help my thoughts but drift to him. When he walked into class, his unreadable expression, you can’t tell if happy or sad was just neutral. A guy that was just like me, who wanted to be invisible from the world, like a ghost, simply passing a small crowd without being noticed.
Was there any time I locked gazes with him? I don’t think so, but thinking about it now and relieving what happened today like a recorded memory in the back of my head, I think I did. But just for a split second if I remember correctly, well I DID recall everything, it was like replaying a movie.
When I was at the lunch table before Dace came to me, our eyes met, and the collision, felt so... illogical, it was like staring back at a confusing piece of perplexity waiting for me to set the pieces right and figure out what unfolds under those forest green eyes of his that were similar to mine and then just like a snap of a twig we both looked away, well I did mainly because I felt sick and drink some water to calm myself. But it was hard to shake the feeling off because I was constantly looking back at him when he just minded his business, this was going too far.
"Emma!"
"Hmm?" I snapped my eyes to my aunt seated before me with both a puzzled and worried mix of expressions.
"Where did you mind go? I called you like twice but you didn’t answer"
"Oh" I mouthed facing my dinner, which was some fish meal, it was delicious, Vanessa was a good cook compared to me.
"Are you okay?" a hint of worry in her tone. I don’t want her to know I was engrossed in some new guy at school, she would only call me paranoid, which I am, but I didn’t want to hear it.
"Y-Yeah, Yeah," I said with a nod, pulling and adjusting my glasses.