BLOOD LEGACIES

DACE

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I have never felt so stupid in my life before, I didn’t need a reason to, but not until now, watching Emma in tears as she said words that broke me, words that were true, things I did and never regretted until I met Emma. She had every right to be angry at me, I was so stupid, I cheated on her and even though she says she understands she doesn’t have to, she had every right to be angry, to hit me, to be jealous, even though it all based on her feelings it was the mark that amplified it, her mark was hurting because of what I did. I could feel it in my very bones.

I felt conquered and ashamed, the more she talked about it the more stupid I felt, if only I didn’t let my urges cloud my mind if only I didn’t bring them here... fuck she might be feeling I was trying to use her, but never! It was all about her, only her! They were just a fling to tame my desires and they understood that assignment, but at the same time unable to satisfy me, the only satisfaction I needed was her.

My female was hurting, she was crying... fuck she even said she understand what I did and yet it hurts her. I don’t blame anybody, I don’t blame Emilia for telling her, I only blame myself for not waiting for her.

Watching her right now in tears... there were no words that could relieve this, there were no words I could tell her that would ease how ashamed I felt, I hurt my baby girl, I can’t even look her in the eye properly without brawling with myself.

"It’s the stupidest thing I have ever done and you have every right to be angry with me, I hurt you, my Female, I swear it wasn’t intentional" I closed my eyes, these were nothing but the truth, I didn’t mean to hurt her, I didn’t mean for her to find out this way, but it was better this way, it is better she knows because after this there will be no more, it’s only her and it will always be.

"You’re the only living being on this earth I desire, baby, no one else just you" I meant every word I said to her, I mean it all, I was hurting the more I saw those tears, knowing I was the one that caused her to cry, she was in pain and I wanted nothing more but to take it away, to ease all her doubts and worries, to ease her body, her mind, and soul. She’s everything to me and I will do everything for her, anything.

So I kissed her hoping it would fuel my apology, hoping I can kiss her tears away, please baby girl, I don’t want you angry at me I can’t bear it, it made my lion crawl at me for hurting our female, for bringing tears to her eyes when we didn’t mean it. I regret it all, I regret fucking other she-lions when I knew I was gonna meet her.

I felt a weight lift off my chest when she wrapped her arms around my chest and deepened the kiss. I felt at ease now that she was responding but that didn’t stop the feeling of regret so I pulled away.