Chapter 94: Insane
This was absurd and insane, how the fuck did I get here? I knew I was home but how? My brain couldn’t process it, I was very certain of the route I took, my damn lion must have lost his mind, I was going crazy! I must have thought about her, fuck I always think about her, and now I ended up here, and not exactly in a very welcoming appearance, I was covered in blood and in my beast form, shit shit shit! The highest of fuck! Stupid stupid stupid! I almost punched myself or clawed at my body for doing something as ridiculous as this, what the actual fuck is wrong with me? I knew I was losing my marbles but this was far exceeding that, this was far beyond my limit of practical thinking.
Every inch of my body brought me here subconsciously, I ended up here without a double thought.
The air bobbled in and I caught a vestige of her lovely scent, fuck! I was already getting a hard-on just by breathing on it and my body was already stringent, my eyes snapped to the house and I zoomed in, my heart almost plunging off my chest when I saw the door open and my baby girl waltz out while dragging a black bag, was that trash?
Getting the answer to my question she frustratedly flung it inside the box near the road, I almost chuckled at her action but I abstained from it when I saw her lamentable looks, I felt my heart sink and my grasp against the tree constricted almost smashing the branch apart, I couldn’t help it, seeing her like that stroke something within me, I felt the need to go to her right now and take away all her unhappiness but that wasn’t such a good idea, I was smarter than that.
I can’t just walk up to her in my magnificent lion form and expect her to welcome me, that would be outlandish and I can’t get her frightened for the third time, I could only watch as my angel make that heart-wrenching facial expression like it was the end of the world, slightly adjusting her glasses as she walked back in, I stood still like a wall scrutinizing her every movement.
To the kitchen and then to the living room, I knew her to always be in her room from time to time but this was distinct, I watched her soothe on the sofa and sheathed herself with her big blanket.
Was she cold? I took a step onward at the thought but I was quickly back in concealment, I can’t do that, what if someone sees me? Stupid! I observed as she used the remote to flip to something to watch and brought the bowl of ice cream close to her, bringing the spoon to her lips multiples times, she should slow down or else her stomach won’t be able to handle it but it seemed like she didn’t bug about that fact and her fixation was undoubtedly not on the screen but somewhere else, I could tell she was in deep fucking thoughts, she was like this because of me and it only made the aching pain within my chest increase, my heart constricted.
It took every scrap of brawl to look away and sprint out of the area before I will do something I will likely regret and degenerate the case.
With my weight on the ground, it trembled from the ardent speed I was mustering up to speed my advances away from the neighborhood, I was utilizing that as a grip to restrain myself but every thread of my bones was screaming at me to go back, I can’t bear to see her like that, I can’t bear this, but what could I do? I just realized for the first time in history, that I always get what I wanted, take what I wanted and do what I wanted, I’m a prideful superior supernatural creature and I was the heir to the Devereaux family, one of the powerful family of supernaturals to walk this earth and yet I can’t have one thing...
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