Chapter 411: Indelible Mark
Yan Sijue’s body stiffened, and after a long time, he softly said, "It’s just a few times of talking in my sleep, it’s nothing."
She trembled lightly in his embrace, finally understanding the source of worry in this man’s eyes! It turned out, she thought she had let go, thought she was fine, but it was nothing like that! She just didn’t want him to worry, so she deeply buried those fears and sadness, she even deceived herself!
But she couldn’t fool her own subconscious. Every time she entered a dream, those fears would rush forward to assault her, disturbing her dream again and again, while she was completely oblivious.
"Si Jue, I’m sorry..." she murmured, as immense grief engulfed her.
"Yiliang..." he uttered lowly, as if using great effort to suppress those chaotic emotions, "Ye Moran’s death is not your fault. If it weren’t for his stubbornness, none of this would have happened. You shouldn’t blame yourself."
Tears finally flowed from her eyes: "But he did die, he died because of me..."
In an instant, those memories she struggled to bury surged towards her! She remembered Ye Moran lying in a pool of blood, trying his hardest to smile at her, and a dull pain pierced her heart.
After all, he was the man she once liked... In her most innocent years, she prayed longingly, just hoping he would glance at her once, maybe just an ordinary word, and it would fill her with joy.
Although that feeling eventually faded away with time, thinking back now, it still made her nostalgic. Even if at that time he showed no interest in her, just seeing him, Mu Yiliang felt immense sweetness.
But, it’s in the past now.
With his death, his stubbornness, his indirect complications and harm to her, she couldn’t bring herself to blame, only remembering the fact that he died for her.
How could she forget?
Yan Sijue’s entire body trembled, his hands involuntarily clutching her tightly!
It turned out her nightmares were not only due to fear, but also self-blame and guilt, and... a heart unwilling to forget.
Ye Moran’s death brought not only her guilt, but also her forgiveness. She no longer loved Ye Moran, but from that point on, she could never forget this name. Ye Moran ultimately left an indelible mark in her heart at the cost of his life!
Thinking of this, Yan Sijue’s heart felt even more sour and complicated. The thing he feared most had finally happened! Her tender heart had forever engraved Ye Moran’s name, he even had no chance to completely remove Ye Moran from her heart!
But, he ultimately could only endure, even be grateful.
Grateful for what he didn’t have time to accomplish back then, Ye Moran did, preventing her from suffering even greater harm.
Actually, wasn’t this his inner demon! How he hated that he was too far from her that day, to the extent of having to watch someone else die for her!
Yan Sijue truly feared that one day he might lose control! The woman he loved had so many people and things she cared about, time and again, despite his strong belief in her love for him, but if this continued, he didn’t know how long he could endure!
He couldn’t go on like this, he needed to speed up... Yan Sijue thought fiercely.