Chapter 114: Self Pity
I was such a fucking idiot!
I finally got the one thing I wanted and what did I do? I let him walk away!
I was ready to tell him how I truly felt, after hearing his raw confession, I was ready to tell him that my heart belonged to him and to him only, but he was now...gone!
I had let my fear paralyze me, I had waited too long and now Reagan had walked away thinking that I didn’t care about him. Heather had claimed it was just a week but it feels like a year to me. A whole lot could happen in a week. A heart can be broken, a love lost and what will I do if he shows up with another woman and decides he wants her as another concubine?
Fuck, how the hell do I cope if he decides to do just that? I thought to myself.
The thought made something in my stomach churn. But then Reagan didn’t seem like the type of man that would go back on his word. He wouldn’t take a concubine after all that he said! He knew how affected I was after he took in Celeste and how the whole thing almost drove a wedge between us, so he wouldn’t do something like that again.
But there is the fact that you had humiliated him in front of the entire court and then hidden away from him for an entire week and now, he is gone for a week! A tiny malicious voice whispered in my ear and I groaned as I flopped down on the bed.
Reagan was gone for a week, away from me and he could easily decide I wasn’t worth the trouble if someone whispered into his ear and offered him comfort since all I could only offer him was pain!
I groaned again as I flopped back down on the bed, kicking my feet as I screamed into the pillow in frustration.