Chapter 502: Waiting Forever
The moment of silence seemed to stretch on to infinity before I heard his soft chuckled. Ever so gently, he braced his knuckle under my chin and lifted my face up. "I’m not scared of you because you’re fragile, or you are the Devil," he said, slowly as if he wanted to make sure I understood what he was saying. "But because I know myself well enough. I don’t know how to be gentle with someone I want this much, and the idea of hurting you? I would rather reach into my chest, pull out my heart and put it on your shelf, than leave a single bruise on your flesh."
The rollercoaster ride I was on brought me back to another peak, another chance to have everything I wanted and needed.
"I’ve never needed you to be gentle," I whispered, begging him to see the truth in my words. "I just need you."
"You don’t understand," Chang Xuefeng sighed, his finger moving from my chin to stroke my face. "You’re the only one I have been gentle with."
I reached for him, my fingers sliding beneath the hem of his shirt as my palms pressed against his abs. Feeling his muscles jump beneath my touch made me want to be braver, to explore his body like I had only dreamed of. "Then let me play, just for a while. Let me pretend like we’re not broken. Like there’s no world outside this room. Let me know what it feels like to have a wish come true."
He breathed in through his nose, slow and trembling as if trying to steel himself. "What do you want to do now?" he asked, looking down at me, his eyes unreadable.
"You," I said, immediately. No hesitation. No smile. Just the truth. "I want to do you."
The effect of my words was instant, and I couldn’t hold back my smile if I tried.
His hand came to my waist, pulling me into him. Not rough. Not yet. But firm. Solid. Real. I could feel each finger as it held me tight, caressing my skin like he, too, was worried this was nothing more than a dream.