Chapter 67: I am Aware
From the moment Caius was turned, Lucian knew there was something about his transformation that was incomplete. It was he who first said Caius was a Vampire Spawn and not a True Vampire, but there was very little he knew about Vampire Spawns. Actually, there was very little that anyone anywhere knew about Vampire Spawns.
Whenever a Vampire turns a person, it’s for a purpose and that purpose can never really be served if the turned can’t even access the true ’worth’ of being a Vampire.
It took a different kind of vendetta for Anthenodora to do what she did to Caius; She didn’t want him strong and didn’t need him to serve her. She just needed him to change enough to make Lucian be forced to make the tough decision to end his own son.
Anyway, it was because of the lack of any real knowledge on Vampire Spawns that Caius felt he could get away with embracing his Vampirism without divulging the truth to his father for fear of how he would take it.
If he talked about his body being already at the very peak of physicality it could be unless he advanced to the next Magic Circle, he had a feeling his father would deduce he was now a True Vampire because, while Lucian knew next to nothing about Vampire Spawns, he knew a lot about Actual Vampires. Hell, he knew everything about them.
Eventually, due to the burning he was feeling and the way he sweated profusely through his clothes due to exercise patterns he was sure he didn’t need, Caius decided he might as well try to tell Lucian enough to at least turn the Exercises to more productive patterns.
"Father..." he said with a groan.
"Yes, son?" Lucian answered gently.
"I— well, I—" Caius started and found he was finding it difficult to get the words out.
"Do you think you don’t need this?" Lucian asked.
"Yes," he answered the question honestly.