Chapter 355 - 347. A Guardian Star
When he grabbed a bread knife and swung it to Han Joon’s neck, Radia was almost in a delirious rage.
They had been weaving dreams of making a guild together, a safe space for them, for Bassena, for Shin. It didn’t even matter if no one else became members. They worked on that promise right after they got their license, raiding dungeons so they had the qualifications for building one.
How many times had Radia talked about the future, and how many times had Joon promised that future? They still talked about it a week before Han Joon suddenly announced he would enter the military instead.
After three years of sweet talking, night after night of promise, that announcement uttered dryly and nonchalantly felt like an ultimate betrayal.
No one betrayed Radia Mallarc.
The strike, obviously, never intended to kill. Not even to harm, with Han Shin there. It was a declaration more than anything, that Han Joon had done something that would make Radia want to end his existence.
Still, when he stared at the blood splattered on his hand, Radia felt bile climbing up to his throat, choking him with burning pain as if a hot coal was lodged in his breathing system. His heart, for the first time, broke into a million pieces, and it broke even more when Joon refused to explain anything. For a week, he couldn’t do anything but fight the impulse to break the world in return.
For years, years--he was truly at odds with Han Joon. The love he had for the man turned into agonizing hatred.
Or so he thought.
In reality, he couldn’t. Every time he saw those black eyes with a hint of a twinkling star, he wanted to succumb. He wanted to ask why. He wanted to beg for the man to come back. Han Joon was his first love, his first worship, his first future.
But Radia Mallarc had his pride, and all the sweetness, the softness he gained when he was a lover evaporated when he was no longer one. So he treated his feelings with spite, and still...