Chapter 472: [Bonus - ] Why do I have to be me?
"That’s what I thought." Heaven peeled her eyes from Bear, setting them on the window not far away from her bed. "To tell you the truth, making him believe I am who I am isn’t what truly scares me. But what terrified me the most is that he would believe that everything I did... everything that I showed him, and everything I had said, were lies."
She might be in a different body, called by an entirely different name, and had to live the life of another. However, her heart had been genuine since day one in this body.
"I love him... and that is the truth," she whispered as a thin layer of tears coated her eyes. "If not, then why would I be hurt?"
Heaven slowly clasped her chest as her fears slowly crawled out of the sealed box in her heart that she kept turning away. "I... can’t lose Dom, Bear. He and Basti... they’re my life now. Without them, I’ll be nothing. I’m good as dead."
A tear rolled down her cheek as she closed her eyes, releasing the frustrations and fear that she suppressed for the longest time. A part of her was grateful Dominic hadn’t come to get the truth, and the other part of her was scared he might not see her again. It was better to see him angry instead of not showing up in front of her completely.
"I’m so sad, Bear," she confessed through her gritted teeth, wiping her eyes with her arm. "Why do I have to be me?"
Bear’s eyes softened, watching her cry quietly like a child. The last time he had seen her cry was during her mother’s death. Back then, she cried and cried until she could no longer shed a single tear, no matter what the situation. Seeing her cry right now only meant just how she valued and treasured her husband and son.
"I’ll try my best." Bear forced a smile, making her look back at him. He reached for the tissue on the bedside table, handing it to her to wipe her tears and blow her nose. "Just give him some time, Hera. I believe he isn’t shallow."
"I’m not saying he was." Heaven hiccuped, blowing her nose before she added, "I’m just... you know. He might feel cheated."