Chapter 86: Before I Erase the Part of Me That Cares
I stared at the unmoving system window, calculations running in exhausted circles.
Removing the emotional dependency on Gianna looked like the cleanest option on paper.
No more bruise sitting unreachable in my core.
No more flinching every time the system suggested the next target.
I could pace myself properly when the time came for Rei, or Saber, or Ruby.
Gianna had become the weight that kept pulling my center of gravity off true. Cut the weight, and the rest of the board became simpler to play.
"Will I lose the memories too?"
[No. Host retains full recollection of events and information. Only the emotional charge attached to the target will be removed. Continuity of experience remains intact.]
I nodded once and closed my eyes.
This was it.
A single switch.
The quest was already complete.
I had the rewards, the level, the new skills. Gianna had never claimed to love me.
She had called me her support more than once, drawn clear lines, asked for distance when the cost became too high.
The system’s logic sat ready and waiting.
[Correct. The primary reason Host has not been placed under permanent facility observation is the measurable core expansion provided to Gianna Everheart.]
[Gianna Everheart possesses the latent potential to rival Empress-class combatants, but her growth trajectory would have remained stagnant without Host intervention.]
[The same applies to Jenna Everheart.]
My eyes opened again.
"Jenna was stagnant?"
[Yes. Before Host’s first controlled intimate exchange, Jenna Everheart had remained at the same recorded level for approximately two years. Host input restarted progressive growth that conventional methods had failed to restore.]
Necessary.
That was the word the system kept circling. I was necessary for their growth.
The feelings were not. The feelings were inefficiency.
I reached for the phone Jenna had given me and opened the contact list.
Gianna’s number was still there, untouched since the call in the car.
The last exchange sat in the log like a closed door. She had been clear. She would not let a mere support drag her down. She needed time to look at what had happened without me standing in the frame, making every thought heavier.
I scrolled aimlessly through a public feed while the decision hardened. News snippets. Gate clearance rankings. A short clip of some Highland Guild supporter basking in camera lights.
None of it held my attention.
The system window remained patient in the corner of my vision, the offer still open, the cursor still waiting for a yes.
There was no need to keep turning it over.
I would still remember her. I would still know what she had chosen and what she had refused.
The feelings that were currently hindering both of our trajectories would simply be removed.
Clean. Efficient. Kind, even if I looked at it from the right angle.
My mouth opened to give the confirmation.
"I-"
Then the feed stopped on a single image.
Someone had taken a photo during the date.
The massive curved advertisement plate glowed blue and magenta in the background.
The pedestrian concourse was crowded with ordinary evening traffic.
And right under the neon, Gianna had pulled me down by the collar and kissed me in full view of anyone who cared to look.
The angle caught both of our faces clearly.
She was the one initiating. She was the one holding the position.
And in the middle of all those strangers, both of us were smiling.
I remembered the exact line she had used.
"Public enough for you?"
The system reacted at once.
[Host nostalgia is actively interfering with optimal decision-making.
Emotional residue is increasing resistance to necessary reset protocols.
Recommendation: Confirm essence removal before further degradation of resolve.]
I didn’t confirm anything.
I closed the phone, dismissed every system window with a sharp mental cut, and let the dark apartment settle around me again.
The offer vanished from my vision, though I could still feel its shape waiting in the background like a door left ajar.
She had asked for a week.
I would give her the week.
Not because the system approved or because Jenna had framed it as necessary recovery time.
Because the woman in that photograph had pulled me into a public kiss under neon lights and smiled while she did it, and whatever version of me still existed under the class and the blockers and the quiet recommendations wasn’t ready to delete the weight of that moment just to make the next strategic move easier.
I lay back on the sofa, one arm folded behind my head, and stared at the ceiling until the residual city light stopped forming patterns.
The bracelet remained cold against my wrist. The muted anchor in my core remained unreachable. The unclaimed decision still sat somewhere in the system’s memory, patient and ready for the next time my resolve thinned.
I didn’t reopen the window.
Across Sector 7, in a smaller, quieter apartment, Gianna Everheart sat on the edge of her own bed with the same public photograph open on her tablet.
The image was already circulating through a few low-level social channels, two recognizable faces under a known advertisement plate, the Everheart daughter and the provisional support who had been the subject of too many quiet rumors already.
She zoomed in once, then set the tablet face down.
Her core still brimmed with the expansion she had not asked to receive in that way. Her neck still carried the faint memory of a hand that had stopped listening to the man it belonged to.
And the smile in the photograph still existed, captured and distributed, proof that there had been a moment when she had chosen to pull him closer in front of an entire street.
She didn’t delete the image.
She only turned off the screen, lay down in the dark, and let the week she had demanded begin in earnest, unaware that on the other side of the city the same photograph had just stopped a man from erasing the part of himself that still cared whether she ever pulled him closer again
