Chapter 9.5
I couldn’t be gay otherwise I wouldn’t find her so attractive, but I also couldn’t deny that the image of Marc in the shower was also a turn on, could I be bi-sexual? Would that be so much a bad thing? The thought of having sex with a guy really didn’t appeal to me, but I was absolutely curious and it was a little un-nerving.
I kept on digging through her pictures, posts and videos. She really was stunning and my now very damp panties confirmed I still found women attractive. Her name was Ellie and she was the same age as me too, and I smiled at the new found connection I had with her, even if it was just virtual. Tonight I would model my show on her, I’d pick an outfit, use my fake breast forms, that temporary hair dye and make my best effort at matching her make-up.
I uploaded all my new videos and felt much better about what had happened in the shower, so what if my cam girl alter ego fantasied about guys, most if not all of my viewers and fans were and that hadn’t stopped me. Besides I had no doubt how well this would go down with them and would be great for pulling in more cash going forwards.
Feeling much more at ease I set about getting ready for the evening live broadcast. With the look I was going for settled I wasted no time in attaching the false breasts, taking note of how they looked and felt. There was that duality of happiness, they absolutely completed the look and enhanced my body shape in a way I never thought possible, but at the same time I was sad that my nipples would be buried and unable to benefit from stimulating them. However the aim of today was to pay homage to my online crush and to do her vision justice I would just have to accept it.
With the glue set I tried on all my new outfits, they fit so much better, and my hours exercising and using the waist trainers and corsets really helped make the most of them. They hugged and squeezed me, with my cock and balls tucked up it was barely possible to identify my reflection as male.
I settled on the perfect outfit, and then carried on with the finer touches. A double application of the lip plumpers keeping them on for longer than I had before, they tingled and stung quite a bit, but I knew the results would be worth it. The hair dye went in next, I would take a few washes to come out, but the shocking pink streaks looked exactly how I wanted them to.
Matching nail and toe polish were next and while they dried I strode around the apartment waving my hands and feeling incredibly sexy. It was hard not to check myself out in the mirror each time I passed, with each application of product and accessory my reflection looked more and more like Ellie. The stockings, the outfit, my makeup with the heavy eyeliner and blusher was a bit more extreme than I was used to, but I was so happy with the result. The straining semi in my tiny G-string underwear was all the confirmation that I needed that I had nailed the look I was going after.
As I sat in front of the computer and logged in, my fans were quick to heap praise on my last upload, the constant positive feedback only boosted my ego and pushed the thoughts of uncertainty to the back of my mind. Looking back at me on screen was an almost carbon copy of my idol, I felt incredible satisfaction that I could pull off a look like this and the teasing and flirting with my viewers came so naturally.
Despite my earlier experiments in the shower and the size of the orgasm I had had, it took very little time for me to get going again, my ass seemingly taking all that new experience in its stride and even tingling a little tempting me to resume playing. But the aim of tonight’s show was to tease and attempt to embody the girl who had started this whole thing off, my fans were going to have to pay, but I would reward them with a show unlike any I had done so far.
It however didn’t take long for me to rather over enthusiastically accept the challenge of sucking the largest of my new dildos, and while I certainly struggled, persistence and perseverance paid off. Resisting the urge to gag and finding new ways to control it I surprised myself and impressed my fans with the depth I was able to achieve.
What shocked me the most was how much the action of sliding a big dildo in and out of my mouth turned me on, it wasn’t just the vision of myself in the monitor, but every time is slid deeper into my throat and I was able to resist the gag, a bolt of joy fired down my spine and connected with my tingling hole and now raging erection.
I hadn’t removed any items of clothing yet, and my hard cock was straining against the lace fabric of my outfit. My mind swam with the sensations coursing through my body, it seemed every fibre of my being was being activated with desire. The feedback from my viewers, the pings of tokens, and my reflection on screen which displayed a girl clearly enjoying herself. The lust was plain for all to see and it felt incredible to feel it at the same time.
As requests came in I gradually became less and less dressed, and the toys became more intimate. The jewelled plug removed and replaced with one of my new dildos, sliding in easily with nothing but a rush of pleasure. My ass accepting the invasion with gusto, a little stretch but nothing uncomfortable, my throat now taking the largest one deeper without issue.
I was transfixed with my own image, my eyes watering slightly as the dick in my mouth found new depth I surged with pride. It looked incredible, ‘I’ looked incredible, suddenly I had to pull the toys from both holes, I was about to cum and I hadn’t even been going that long. I gasped bringing my breath back under control, it was so easy to get carried away but I had to resist, Ellie my cam girl idol was so proficient at teasing her audience and I always let my desire to orgasm cloud my mind.
Taking a few moments I resumed my conversation with my viewers. I had completely lost myself for a good half an hour, my token total was already well on the way to being a new all-time best, but I knew I had more to offer, and much more to tease out of them. I was confident in how I looked more so than in any previous show, and as the targets were met I removed more and more clothing.
Up until now I had always kept on most of my items, needing them to help me feel secure and unexposed, despite the praise lauded at me. A part was always waiting to be called out, to be ridiculed as a guy in women’s lingerie, even if I hadn’t seen any comments of that nature in a very long time. Today however I felt on fire, my silicone chest forms were blended to perfection and for the first time I completely removed my outfit, retaining only the stocking and heels.
I knew which angles to pose in to the camera, the positions which enhanced the assets I had painstakingly worked on for the last few months. Just breathing in and pushing my ass out gave the delightful impression that I had curves well beyond the reality, even if the waist trainer and yoga had certainly done a great deal. Part of me was expecting to be disappointed with the video playback on screen but I was overjoyed.
With all the outfit on I knew I looked good, good enough to be compared to Ellie. But without it I felt more vulnerable, a significant safety blanked removed and yet, despite that I still looked great, the pings ringing out confirming I wasn’t the only one who thought that too.
I cared less about the poses designed to enhance my form and relaxed into it more. The false tits looked very nearly believable, in fact quite a few commentators thought they were and as I played with them I once again lamented the lack of feel or sensation that they gave me. However rewarding it was to hold and squeeze them, and make the girl on screen do as I wanted.
I hadn’t played with any of my toys for a while now and yet my cock stood firm and to attention, my ass craved something, and thoughts flashed through me of how I wanted to bring tonight’s show to a grand finale. Being this turned on by myself wasn’t exactly unusual, but it was considering I was almost totally naked bar the stocking and makeup. I just couldn’t get over how much I looked like Ellie, and she was so utterly stunning, I felt like I could almost be her, if it wasn’t for the now dripping rod of hard meat sticking out from between my legs.
I couldn’t take much more, my body was screaming for release, a string of precum hung from my tip and I drew it up to mouth, it was so sweet, so moreish. The desire to taste more, and to give in to my needs grew even stronger. I teased my audience, as much for my own benefit too, trying to decide which toys I would use, and where I would use them.
A regular big tipping fan contributed to the idea that I should suck the biggest, and while my ass was totally stuffed use the vibrator but no hands. And who was I to refuse, the very notion of it made me shudder. Moments later I was sprawled across the bed, the mid-sized dildo slid effortlessly deep inside my asshole, the thick base coming to rest spreading my cheeks.
I used the largest dildo, to rub my own dick covering it we precum which was now pouring from me like a broken tap. I got it all slick before bringing it to my mouth and sliding it in, as it made contact with the back of my throat I groaned and the vibrations reverberated through me making my whole body lurch. My hole clamped tighter and my cock jumped of its own accord.
In popped the end fully down my throat, my eyes closed as I allowed myself a moment to become accustomed to its intrusion. I slid it back out and repeated the process covering it with my precum and again pushing it back down deeper savoring the taste and impression it left as it found new depths.
With my eyes open I could observe as an almost outer body experience, my image on screen taking the full length and visibly trembling each time, I became entranced with my own vision, this is how Ellie must feel when she does this, it felt overwhelming, connecting with my ultimate alter ego. Bringing me closer to what I imagined it must feel like for her.
Suddenly I became aware that I was getting light headed, how long had I had this thing stuffed all the way down my throat. I pulled it out and gasped loudly, my voice cracking as I gulped air to refill my burning lungs. I had felt horny in previous shows but this was on another level, I needed to take this to its conclusion.
I fired up the vibrator, propped up my body so I could get all the right angles and started to simultaneously slide the vibe over my soaked cock as I sucked with gusto on the rubber dildo, I wished I had a spare arm to play with the one in my ass too, but I would just have to settle for grinding against the bed.
I knew it wouldn’t be long, and sure enough as I once again pushed deeper into my throat the flow of energy it produced surged all over my, I wouldn’t have screamed out loud if it wasn’t for my mouth being full. I pulled it out just in time to see the first massive rope of cum splash from my pulsing cock onto my silicone mounds.
Seeing it jet out and land across my breasts was an incredible sight, my mouth hung open and the next fired up and over my face, a little landing in my mouth. I dropped both toys and used my left hand to pump more as each waved crashed over me, my right grasping the one in my ass and frantically thrusting it in and out. The new stimulation extended my climax and new waves brought a steady pulse of cum. Each time bringing it to my mouth to savour every drop
I must have unloaded ten or more shots before it ran dry, yet the pulses continued as I stroked my shaft and slid the dildo in and out, eventually I had to stop as I ran out of strength, the aftershocks carried on gradually reducing to ripples and eventually fading away. I lay, exhausted on a soaked bed, the rushing sound of my heartbeat and ragged breathing fading to be replaced by the pings and rings of donations from the live stream.
It took me a good few minutes to gather the strength to sit up, it seemed the more I masturbated, the more toys I used the larger and more consuming my climaxes became, I thought for a moment if I had found the limit, or what was even possible for me anymore. I was constantly in new and uncharted territory but it seemed with every turn my body responded with even more pleasure and I was finding it hard not to become addicted to it.
Eventually I regained enough composure to talk with my fans, I had obliterated any previous records as well as get myself up into the top 6 of all trans cams at the time. I had never had this many viewers before. the afterglow had faded slightly but was being replaced with the admiration of my new and old fans. To feel this adored and desired was something very new to me, and it only added to the chemical overload my brain was under from cumming so hard.
I closed the chat and switched off all the cameras, I had no energy to do any editing, and even though it was particularly late I cleaned up and readied myself for bed. I remade the bed but couldn’t summon the strength to unstick the breast forms, that could wait until the morning. And anyway I quite liked the weight clinging to my chest, it felt quite comforting especially in this supportive teddy. As my head hit the pillow I drifted off to sleep, thoroughly satisfied and completely content.