Chapter 96 - 3: Signed, Not Started III
Two beginner Dutch sessions a week, online. And an introduction to a player-liaison officer whose job, the email said, was to help him with housing and transport and the ordinary business of actually living in Deventer, because knowing the football words wouldn’t help him read a tenancy agreement or a bus timetable in a language he didn’t speak.
Jay pulled a notebook toward him and started laying the next two months out properly.
He wrote the fixed football requirements first, because those were the ones that couldn’t move.
High-intensity pitch days. Strength sessions. Recovery days. Video review with Go Ahead. Dutch lessons.
Then the hospital visiting times, blocked in around them.
Only once all of that was down did he pick the phone back up and call the café.
"Jay, lad." Dev sounded genuinely pleased. "The conquering hero. How’s it feel?"
"Weird, honestly. I’m still me." Jay kept it simple. "Listen, I’m not assuming anything, but have you got any shifts going between now and end of December? I could do with the money before I head off."
"I’m not gonna lie and say I held your job for you, because I didn’t, we filled the gap," Dev said. "But you left on good terms and you actually turn up on time, which is rarer than it should be. I can do you a flexible rota. Can’t promise your old hours though. It’d be less."
"That’s fine. Two, three shifts a week? Nothing that finishes late the night before I’ve got a big football day."
"That I can work with. Start you next week." A pause. "Send us your football schedule first though, so I’m not rota-ing you on when you’re meant to be running about a pitch. I need someone who’s actually going to be any use while they’re here, contract or no contract."
"Fair," Jay said, and meant it. The announcement hadn’t turned the café into a fan club, and he was glad of it.
He sent the proposed café hours to Garcia straight after.
Garcia rang back inside ten minutes, and he wasn’t happy.
"You’ve got a closing shift the night before a high-intensity pitch day, and you’ve got the café stacked on the same days you’re at the hospital," Garcia said. "There’s no recovery in this. None. You’ll be running on empty by week two."
"I can’t sit here for two months earning nothing while they keep paying bills at home," Jay said. "I can’t do it, Gabriel. It’s alright for—"
He stopped himself before he finished it.
"I’m not telling you to abandon your family," Garcia said, evenly. "I’m telling you that if you turn up in January below the level, you put at risk the one thing that actually pays them back for the next thirty months. Break yourself in November to make a few hundred quid and you could cost yourself the contract that makes fourteen grand a month."
"I want to help them now. Not in January. Now."
"I know you do. And I want you to protect the thing that helps them properly." Neither of them was wrong, and they both knew it. "So we meet in the middle."
They landed on two flexible shifts a week to start, no closing shifts at all, with an immediate review the moment his recovery data started sliding.
"And Rafi runs the football work where he can," Garcia added, "so someone who knows what he’s looking at has eyes on you, and Go Ahead’s people review the numbers on top of that. If the data drops, the café drops. That’s the deal."
"Two shifts," Jay agreed. "For now."
The video call with Go Ahead’s performance coach came the next morning.
The coach didn’t waste it welcoming him or going back over the medical. He shared his screen instead, a page of numbers with Jay’s name at the top.
"We built this from your medical testing, your approved training data out of Egersund, and what your agent gave us about the readiness block you did with Rafi over the summer," the coach said. "So we’re not guessing. We know roughly what we’ve signed."
"Right."
"Your peak acceleration’s already good. Genuinely, it’s competitive with what we’ve got. That’s not the problem." He moved the cursor down the page. "This is. Repeat high-intensity output. Doing that same sprint, that same recovery run, that same explosive action, five, six, ten times inside a professional workload, and not watching your numbers fall off a cliff by the end. That’s the gap."
"So I need to be able to do it again and again."
"Again and again and again, at the level, without dying," the coach said. "We signed you because we think that gap closes. But I’ll be straight with you, you’re not getting a softer standard because you came out of semi-pro. The bar’s the bar. You hit it or you’re not ready."
Jay had half wanted him to say the contract proved he was already good enough.
Instead the coach pulled up a second box and typed numbers into it, January targets, actual figures Jay would be measured against, and that was the whole answer he got.
Not "you belong." Just "here’s the number, go and reach it."
The Dutch lesson invitation arrived that afternoon, and it was a lighter thing.
Jay opened the introductory material and had a go at the first phrases out loud in his room, mangling the vowels.
His father heard him through the door and repeated one back from the hallway, worse than Jay had said it, flat and broad and completely wrong.
"You said that wrong," Jay called out.
"You said it first," his father called back, "so what’s that make you."
Jay laughed, alone in his room, for the first time since he’d landed.
That evening he sat back down at the kitchen table with everything the next two months had become physically spread out in front of him.
The signed contract in its folder. The café’s provisional rota. His mum’s treatment and visiting schedule. The Go Ahead conditioning programme. The Dutch lesson calendar. The stack of relocation documents.
His phone lay to one side, still lighting up every few minutes with congratulations and requests and people who suddenly wanted to be near him. He turned it face-down.
Then he did the maths with his pen instead of his feelings.
He crossed one café shift off the draft rota, because Garcia was right and two was the honest number. He protected the hospital visits he could realistically keep, and let go of one he couldn’t.
And then, before anything else, he blocked in the football preparation, in ink, first, because that was the part he’d finally accepted was already his job now, even though the wage hadn’t started.
The signed, not started. That was the shape of it.
The last thing to land that night was a file from Go Ahead’s performance department, his first baseline comparison.
His own numbers ran down the left. The club’s established first-team winger benchmark ran down the right, beside them, for contrast.
His acceleration sat inside the required range already. He read that line twice and let himself have it.
Then his eyes dropped to the next two rows. Repeat-sprint output. Recovery between high-intensity efforts. Both of his numbers sat under the line, clearly, with the gap laid out in plain figures that didn’t care how good his left foot was.
At the bottom of the page, the performance department had marked the one thing everything else was pointing at.
Required Arrival Status: First-Team Ready.
