The Queen's Mage

On the fifth morning after conditional approval, Allandra arrived with three objects and very little confidence in any of them.

The first was the revised oath, now marked with Lady Verya’s corrections in two different inks: one formal, one clearly annoyed. The second was a preliminary budget for the provisional Royal Mage’s office, which looked thin enough to be harmless and menacing enough to be law. The third was a list of demonstration conditions from Marielle, whose handwriting suggested she had been smiling while writing the word controlled.

Daravan had offered to accompany her.

Allandra had declined.

Then she had spent the entire walk to the east wing reconsidering that decision.

The guard outside Serali’s door opened it without comment. No key turned afterward. No bolt slid home. Progress, measured in absences.

Inside, Mara was setting a tray on the hearth table.

Serali stood near the window with the pale winter sun behind her, dark hair loose over one shoulder, one hand lifted as a thread of shadow curled between her fingers.

She wore violet.

Not the soft lavender court women chose when they wanted to look delicate. Deep violet. Almost black where the folds gathered, bright as a bruise where the light caught it. The color found her eyes and made them impossible.

Allandra stopped dead.

The shadow above Serali’s hand vanished.

Mara looked from Serali to Allandra and went very carefully blank.

Treason, Allandra thought.

Domestic treason.

Serali glanced down at herself. “Is something wrong?”

“No.”

The answer came too quickly.

Serali’s mouth curved. “Convincing.”

Allandra crossed to the table and set down the papers before her face could complete whatever betrayal it was attempting. “I have the revised oath, the budget, and Marielle’s conditions for the demonstration.”

“Good morning to you as well.”

Mara made a sound suspiciously close to a cough.

Allandra looked at her. “Mara.”

“Majesty?”

“Did you choose this gown?”

Mara folded her hands. “Yes, Majesty. The blue needed cleaning, the gray made her look ill, and the green was not preferred.”

Serali’s brows lifted. “Not preferred is generous. It makes me look like a municipal curtain.”

Mara’s shoulders trembled once.

Allandra did not smile.

Barely.

“I will note the preference.”

“Please do. I am told there will be many opportunities to humiliate myself in public.”

Mara curtsied, far too innocently. “I will be just outside.”

She left with the expression of a woman who had lit a candle and placed it carefully beside dry curtains.

The door closed.

No lock.

Allandra looked at the empty space where Mara had stood, then back at Serali.

“She is becoming dangerous.”

“She has been dangerous for days,” Serali said. “You are only noticing because the danger is aimed at you.”

“That does not comfort me.”

“It was not meant to.”

For one breath, Allandra looked at the empty space where Mara had stood.

Then, despite herself, she looked back at Serali.

“You hate green?”

Serali’s brows lifted. “That is the question you chose first?”

“It seemed relevant.”

“To the oath?”

“To diplomacy.”

Serali’s mouth curved. “I dislike it on myself.”

Allandra held very still. “And on others?”

Serali looked up.

The pause was brief.

Not innocent.

“On others,” she said, “it can be very effective.”

Allandra’s pulse gave one hard, ridiculous beat.

Serali’s eyes flicked over her: the deep green coat, the fitted collar, the line of gold at the cuffs. Then, more dangerous still, up to her face.

“Especially,” Serali added, “when worn by someone with the audacity to match it.”

Allandra should have answered immediately.

She did not.

Serali’s smile sharpened. “Did I finally render the queen speechless?”

“No,” Allandra said.

“Convincing.”

“I was considering whether that was a compliment or an act of aggression.”

“With me, Majesty, those are often the same thing.”

Serali came to the table and lifted the revised oath. Her fingers were ink-stained. The marks on her wrists had faded from raw red to healing pink, but Allandra saw them anyway. She always saw them.

Serali skimmed the page. “Verya has made the information clause uglier.”

“More precise.”

“That is often uglier.”

“She would agree with you.”

“Then I withdraw the complaint.”

Allandra almost smiled.

Serali’s gaze flicked over the page. “No surrender. No disclosure. No battlefield service unless separately agreed. No iron.”

“No iron,” Allandra said.

Serali looked up.

For one breath, the room remembered the bangle opening. The gasp. The sudden flood of bond and heat and fear. Serali’s eyes finding Allandra as if she had heard a door thrown open inside her own body.

Serali looked away first. “And the demonstration?”

“Three days from now. Private. Lia, Daravan, Marielle, Verya, myself.”

“No Hagen.”

“No Hagen.”

Serali’s mouth twitched. “That sounded satisfying.”

“It was.”

“Careful, Majesty. You nearly admitted to emotion.”

“I am told I have those.”

“By whom?”

“People with poor self-preservation.”

Serali laughed softly.

The bond warmed.

Allandra felt it now as she always did: the answer under her skin, the bright lift of Serali’s amusement crossing into her own blood. Since the iron came off, Serali felt more too. Not everything. Not cleanly. But enough that the warmth between them no longer seemed to move in one direction.

Enough that restraint had become a shared room.

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Serali’s gaze sharpened. “You are doing it again.”

“Doing what?”

“Looking as if you are deciding whether to apologize.”

Allandra looked down at the papers. “I was deciding whether to ask about yesterday.”

“The garden?”

“The training ground.”

Serali went very still.

Then, with impressive dignity, she said, “I enjoyed the demonstration.”

Allandra’s heart, normally impervious to surprise attacks, pounded so hard it made her lightheaded.

“You looked—” Serali hesitated, then said, “very authoritative.”

Allandra blinked. “Authoritative.”

“Yes.”

“In trousers.”

“In anything, probably,” Serali admitted. “But the trousers did help.”

Allandra’s mouth went dry. “What does authoritative mean?”

Serali was close enough that Allandra could see the flecks of darker purple in her eyes. The silence between them went dense, charged.

“It means,” Serali said, “that you look like you could order the world to stop spinning and it would listen.”

Allandra did not trust herself to reply.

Serali’s expression changed.

Only slightly.

But the bond caught it.

Want.

It entered the room before Serali could hide it. Not thought. Not words. Not even invitation. Desire, sharp and startled and mortified, lighting through the bond with enough force that Allandra’s own breath caught.

Serali froze.

Allandra went still.

The silence after was worse than speech.

Serali’s color rose along her throat. “You felt that.”

“Yes.”

The word came out rougher than Allandra intended.

Serali turned away. “Splendid.”

“I am sorry.”

“Do not apologize for hearing something I apparently shouted with my blood.”

Allandra took one step back.

Serali noticed that too.

“What are you doing?”

“Giving you room.”

“Did I ask for room?”

“No.”

“Then perhaps do not decide what I need before asking.”

The rebuke landed cleanly.

Allandra stopped.

Serali faced her again, color still high, chin lifted. “What exactly did you feel?”

Allandra’s mouth went dry. “Your wanting.”

Serali inhaled.

For once, no immediate retort came.

Allandra forced herself to hold still. “I should not have said that.”

“No,” Serali said. “You probably should not have.”

A beat.

Then she stepped closer.

“But you did.”

“Serali.”

“Do not say my name like a warning unless you intend to tell me what danger I am in.”

Allandra’s control frayed.

“The danger,” she said, “is that if I kiss you now, I will want more than a kiss.”

Serali’s eyes darkened.

“Wanting is not taking.”

“No. But it is close enough to frighten me.”

Serali’s hand caught the front of Allandra’s coat. Light enough to release. Firm enough to choose.

“Then be frightened and ask.”

Allandra’s breath left her.

“May I kiss you?”

Serali’s smile trembled, sharp and bright and not quite safe. “You may.”

The first touch was careful.

The second was not.

Serali’s hand slid to the side of Allandra’s neck, and Allandra forgot the oath, the budget, the guards, the demonstration, the entire architecture of consequence waiting outside the door. She kissed back with a hunger she had spent weeks filing under state concern and moral failure.

Serali gasped, and the sound made Allandra’s body light up from the inside.

The bond flared so hard the nearest lamp guttered.

Allandra broke away first.

Barely.

They stood close enough that restraint had to be rebuilt one breath at a time.

Serali’s fingers were still against her collar. “You should not do that when you are angry.”

“I am not angry.”

“You look like you want to break something.”

“I want to ruin my own restraint,” Allandra said. “Repeatedly.”

Serali flushed.

Allandra closed her eyes.

“Unwise thing to say aloud.”

“Yes,” Serali said, voice uneven. “But educational.”

A knock came at the door.

Both of them froze.

Mara’s voice, gentle and treasonous, came through the wood. “Majesty? Royal Mage? Have the reports met with approval?”

Serali’s mouth curved slowly.

Allandra whispered, “Do not.”

Serali raised her voice. “They are extremely satisfactory.”

Mara paused.

Then, with flawless innocence, “How fortunate.”

Allandra stepped back before laughter or desire could undo her entirely. She gathered the budget and oath with hands that were not as steady as she would have preferred.

“We will review the rest later.”

“Will we?”

“Yes.”

Serali’s eyes flicked to Allandra’s mouth. “How disciplined.”

“I am trying to be.”

“I noticed.”

That landed softer than teasing.

Allandra looked at her.

Serali looked back.

For a moment, neither moved.

Then Allandra left before the room could become another argument she wanted to lose.

Chapter 66: Tactical Imbalance

For several minutes after Allandra left, Serali did not move.

The door closed behind the queen with its new, courteous softness. No lock. No bolt. Only the quiet click of wood meeting frame and the murmur of guards beyond it.

The room remained still.

Too still.

Serali stared at the place where Allandra had stood.

Then she pressed both hands over her face and whispered, “No.”

It did not help.

Her mouth remembered the kiss. Her skin remembered Allandra’s hand at her waist, firm enough to matter, light enough to release. Worse, Allandra had known before the kiss. Not guessed. Not read. Known.

Serali dropped her hands.

The oath still lay on the table. The budget still waited like punishment. Everly’s card leaned beside the lamp, the crooked dragon watching her with the bland judgment of paper.

Serali pointed at it. “Not one word.”

The dragon, annoyingly, complied.

She began to pace.

Window. Hearth. Desk. Door.

No tether stopped her now. No cord caught at her wrist. She had more space in which to be humiliated.

Excellent.

The problem was not that Allandra wanted her. Serali had known that.

The problem was not even that Serali wanted her back.

That was worse, obviously. Embarrassing. Poorly timed. Evidence of structural failure in the part of Serali’s mind assigned to survival. But it was not new information.

Allandra had sensed it.

Or whatever humiliating old-magic term applied when one woman’s desire apparently leapt across a room and announced itself to the queen like a court herald.

What else could she sense?

Could Allandra tell when Serali lied? When she dreamed? When she thought of running? When she thought of Allandra in trousers, sword in hand, hair damp at the temples, which she was absolutely not thinking about now and therefore did not count?

Serali resumed pacing faster.

If Allandra could tell when Serali was… compromised, then Serali was at a severe disadvantage.

A catastrophic disadvantage.

A stupid, romantic, biological disadvantage.

She hated biological disadvantages most of all. At least knives had the decency to be external.

“That,” she said aloud, “is unacceptable.”

She snatched up a scrap of paper and wrote:

Find out what the bond can reveal.

Then:

Immediately.

After a moment, with deep resentment:

Before touching her again.

Her face warmed.

She crossed out the line so viciously the nib nearly tore the paper.

Then she wrote it again, smaller and angrier:

Especially before touching her again.

A knock sounded.

Serali nearly stabbed the page.

The door opened a cautious inch. “Serali?”

Mara.

Of course.

Serali shoved the paper under the oath. “What?”

Mara entered with the air of someone checking which furniture had survived a storm. Her eyes flicked once to Serali’s face, once to the papers, once to the plum tart on the tray, then away.

Too quickly.

Suspiciously quickly.

Serali narrowed her eyes. “What did you do?”

Mara froze. “Pardon?”

“The gown.”

Mara looked very innocent.

Serali distrusted innocence. It was usually worn by children, assassins, and servants who had selected violet gowns with strategic intent.

“The blue needed cleaning,” Mara said. “The green was not preferred. The gray made you look ill.”

“And?”

“The violet fit.”

“There. Evasion.”

“It was accuracy.”

“Accuracy is a favorite disguise in this palace.”

Mara’s mouth twitched.

Serali folded her arms. “You knew.”

Mara’s expression became still.

The silence was delicate.

“No,” Mara said carefully. “I do not know. Not in any way that would matter if someone asked me under oath.”

Serali stared.

Mara folded her hands at her waist. “But I know Her Majesty has changed. I know you have changed. I know Lia looks at both of you as if she is trying to keep a very old roof from collapsing. And I know Captain Daravan has begun standing outside doors with the expression of a man guarding a lit candle in a room full of curtains.”

Serali closed her eyes. “Wonderful.”

“I know nothing useful.”

“You know enough to be dangerous.”

“Only domestically.”

“That is the most dangerous kind.”

Mara accepted this with a small dip of her head.

Serali sat because her legs had become less trustworthy than she preferred. “I need information.”

“What sort?”

“Old fae magic.”

Mara’s face went carefully blank.

“There may be books,” she said.

“Where?”

“The royal library.”

“I am allowed there?”

“Not alone.”

“Obviously.”

“I could ask.”

“No. If you ask, someone asks why. If someone asks why, I have to explain. If I explain, people become unbearable.”

Mara did not argue.

Good.

“What about Lia?” Mara asked.

“Lia speaks in riddles and moral warnings.”

“She is good at those.”

“She is awful at those. That is why they work.”

Mara’s mouth curved.

Serali looked at the closed door.

Allandra had left with color still high in her face and restraint pulled around her like armor. She had sensed Serali’s wanting and stepped back anyway.

That should have comforted her.

It did.

Unacceptable.

“I need to know what it can do,” Serali said quietly.

Mara did not ask what it was.

That was answer enough.

Serali’s gaze snapped to her. “You know.”

Mara’s eyes lifted.

“No,” she said again. “But my grandmother told old stories. Bonds. Recognition. People who could sense one another through fear, or dreams, or wanting.”

Serali’s mouth went dry. “Wanting.”

“Yes.”

“Splendid. An ancient magical defect with no respect for privacy.”

“I do not think the stories considered it a defect.”

“Stories are written by people with locks on the outside of other people’s doors.”

Mara did not argue.

Serali dragged one hand through her hair. “I need real sources.”

“The library,” Mara said. “Or Lia.”

“No.”

“Or Her Majesty.”

Serali turned.

Mara looked as if she regretted the suggestion but not enough to retract it. “She is part of this.”

“I noticed.”

“She may know more.”

“She may also know exactly when I am mortified, which creates a tactical imbalance.”

Mara blinked.

Then, very carefully, “Is that what happened?”

Serali stared.

Mara’s eyes widened. “I am sorry. I should not have—”

“She said she could sense me.”

Mara went quiet.

Serali looked away, furious with herself for saying it aloud and furious with Mara for being safe enough to hear it.

“Not thoughts,” she said sharply. “Nothing useful. Just enough to be intolerable.”

“What did she do?”

The question was quiet.

Serali looked back.

No gossip. No smirk. Only concern.

That settled something.

“She stepped back.”

Mara’s shoulders lowered a fraction.

“And then I stepped forward,” Serali added, because she would not let Allandra be noble alone in the retelling. “So do not look relieved on my behalf.”

“I wouldn’t dare.”

“You would. Quietly.”

“Perhaps quietly.”

Serali leaned back. “I need books.”

“About bonds.”

“Yes.”

“Then discreetly, romances may be easier than scholarship.”

Serali recoiled. “Romances.”

“Old ones. Some may include mate stories.”

“I want scholarship, not bosoms and destiny.”

“Scholarship may be harder to request discreetly.”

Serali hated that this was true.

“Fine,” she said. “Bring the romances.”

Mara’s lips twitched.

“If you laugh, I will assign you to read the worst passages aloud to Daravan.”

Mara went pale with delighted horror. “You wouldn’t.”

“I absolutely would.”

“Then I will not laugh.”

“You are laughing internally.”

“Very quietly.”

Serali pointed toward the door. “Go acquire indecent literature for state purposes.”

Mara curtsied.

Too deeply.

Mockingly, perhaps.

“Of course,” she said. “For state purposes.”

She reached the door before Serali spoke again.

“Mara.”

The maid turned.

Serali looked down at the teacup in her hands. “Thank you.”

Mara’s face softened.

Unbearable.

“You’re welcome.”

“Don’t look like that.”

“Like what?”

“Like I’m becoming attached.”

Mara’s smile was gentle now. “Of course not.”

“I’m not.”

“Of course.”

“I need information.”

“Yes.”

“For leverage.”

“Certainly.”

“And survival.”

“Obviously.”

Mara opened the door.

Before she stepped out, she said, “And perhaps because not knowing is worse.”

Serali had no answer.

Mara left, closing the door without a lock.

Serali sat very still.

Then she reached for the scrap of paper again and added beneath her previous line:

Research bond. Determine limits. Determine defenses.

After a moment, she wrote:

Assume wanting is weakness until proven otherwise.

The dragon card watched her from beside the lamp.

Serali looked at it. “Do not judge me. You are four-year-old propaganda.”

The dragon did not answer.

She sighed, folded the paper, and tucked it beneath the budget ledger.

Then she picked up the plum tart and took an angry bite.

It was excellent.

Of course it was.