The Queen's Mage

Lia came the next morning with her case in one hand and a look on her face that made Serali immediately suspicious.

Not concern. Concern had become familiar enough that Serali could spot it even when people tried to hide it. This was something quieter. More measuring. The same expression Lia wore when inspecting a wound that had scabbed too neatly and might be hiding rot beneath.

Serali sat in the chair by the window with one knee drawn up beneath her skirt, the tether looped loosely over her lap. The morning light had turned the room pale and clean, softening every surface into something almost harmless. The fire had burned low, but the lamps remained, all of them. Mara had trimmed them before dawn and left the curtains open with the kind of careful silence that now felt almost like conversation.

Lia closed the door behind herself.

Alone.

Serali’s attention sharpened. “No guard?”

“Outside.”

“Optimistic.”

“I have survived worse than a woman in a chair.”

“I have a porcelain cup.”

“I have spent three centuries treating noblemen with fevers. Porcelain no longer frightens me.”

Serali looked at her for a moment.

Then, despite herself, she snorted.

Lia crossed to the table and set down her case. “May I examine your wrists?”

“There it is.”

“What?”

“May.” Serali lifted her tethered hand. “The word of the week.”

Lia’s face did not change. “Would you prefer I stopped asking?”

Serali opened her mouth.

Closed it.

No. She would not prefer that. That was the problem.

She extended her wrist instead.

Lia accepted the answer without comment. She sat across from her and began unwrapping the bandage, her fingers warm and dry against Serali’s skin. Serali watched her hands because watching her face seemed unwise.

“The swelling is better,” Lia said.

“How disappointing for everyone.”

“I assure you, no one in the infirmary was rooting for infection.”

“How progressive.”

Lia’s mouth twitched faintly. “Still tender?”

“No.”

Lia pressed lightly beneath the wrist bone.

Pain sparked up Serali’s arm.

Her fingers jerked.

Lia looked at her.

Serali looked back.

“Still tender,” Lia said.

“Do you ask questions only to ignore the answers?”

“Frequently. Patients lie.”

“Maybe your questions are rude.”

“Also frequently.”

Serali almost smiled, which irritated her enough to stop.

Lia cleaned the skin with a cloth scented of something green and sharp. Rosemary, maybe. Or some Sun Fae herb with an unnecessarily pleasant name. The raw places had shrunk to neat red bands, ugly but closing. Serali hated how much relief she felt seeing it. Wounds that healed were proof of time passing, and time passing meant she had not yet died.

It also meant the world was moving toward whatever decision Allandra had not made.

Her stomach tightened.

Lia noticed.

Of course she did.

“Pain?” the healer asked.

“No.”

“Fear?”

Serali’s eyes snapped up.

Lia’s gaze was calm.

“That was not one of the usual questions,” Serali said.

“No.”

“Trying something new?”

“Yes.”

“Don’t.”

Lia resumed applying salve. “You slept poorly.”

“I was unaware you were keeping track.”

“Mara said the bed was barely touched.”

“Mara talks too much.”

“She worries.”

“That is stupid of her.”

“Usually,” Lia said, “yes.”

Serali blinked.

The answer was dry enough that it almost passed for agreement, but there was something beneath it. Not rebuke. Not quite. An acknowledgment that worry was sometimes stupid and people did it anyway.

Lia tied the fresh bandage with a loose, careful knot.

“You have been dreaming,” she said.

Serali went still.

“Everyone dreams.”

“Not like this.”

A slow, cold line opened down Serali’s spine.

She pulled her wrist back, but Lia released her before it became a tug-of-war. That was worse, somehow. The healer did not try to hold her.

“What did Mara tell you?” Serali asked.

“Nothing about dreams.”

“Then why say that?”

“Because you have the look of someone who has been waking from places she did not choose to go.”

Serali’s mouth tightened. “That is poetic nonsense.”

“Most accurate things are, if phrased badly.”

“I sleep badly because I’m locked in a room.”

“Yes.”

“Tied to a bed.”

“Yes.”

“Waiting for your queen to decide whether I am worth more alive or dead.”

Lia’s expression shifted at that, very slightly.

Serali leaned forward. “That part bothers you.”

“Several parts bother me.”

“Not enough to untie me.”

“No.”

The honesty landed cleanly.

Serali hated her for it.

Lia closed the salve jar and set it aside. “Do you feel unusual?”

Serali laughed once. “In general?”

“In your body.”

“You mean aside from the wrists? The bruises? The charming medicinal aftertaste in everything I drink?”

“You are no longer being sedated through the water.”

Serali looked sharply at the cup on the side table.

Lia followed her gaze. “By order of the queen.”

Something in Serali’s chest pulled tight.

Of course.

Allandra again. Allandra in the lamps, in the longer tether, in Mara saying may. Allandra everywhere except the room itself, and then suddenly in it, sitting across from Serali with her hands clenched on a chair because she would not reach.

Serali looked away.

“I feel fine,” she said.

Lia folded her hands. “Do you?”

The room went very quiet.

Serali disliked the question. She disliked Lia’s tone more.

“What are you looking for?” Serali asked.

“Patterns.”

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“In me?”

“Yes.”

“How flattering.”

“You are restless.”

“I am imprisoned.”

“You are alert to footsteps in the corridor.”

“I am imprisoned.”

“And you are disappointed when they pass by.”

Serali’s blood went cold.

Lia did not look away.

Serali smiled slowly. “Careful.”

“With what?”

“With whatever game this is.”

“It is not a game.”

“Everything in a palace is a game. Usually one where people like you tell people like me the rules after we’ve already lost.”

Lia’s face softened by the smallest degree. “I am not trying to make you lose.”

“You work for her.”

“I do.”

“You report to her.”

“When medically necessary.”

“That is not an answer.”

“It is the answer I can give.”

Serali stood too quickly.

The tether slid from her lap and pulled tight with a soft hiss against the rug. She hated the sound. Hated that Lia’s eyes flicked to it, then away, as if giving Serali the mercy of not watching the limit catch her.

Serali paced to the window, as far as the cord allowed.

Outside, Myrae shone in clean morning light. Terraces, glass roofs, white-gold walls, the distant blue of the harbor. Somewhere beyond that harbor, ships left every day. Whole lives moved on the water, unbound and unreachable.

“What patterns?” Serali said.

Lia was quiet behind her.

Then, “Do you know much about old fae magic?”

Serali turned.

Her laugh was sharp. “I know old fae magic is what royals call anything they don’t want servants learning.”

“That is not inaccurate.”

“I know Lyehira controls the old incantations. Deep Naeric for the royal line, court mages, people with enough blood to be worth educating.” Her mouth twisted. “I was taught in scraps. Smuggled books. Whatever Cillian could risk.”

Lia nodded. “And older than that?”

“Older than Xuiven?”

“Yes.”

“Original Faerie nonsense. Songs. Fireside stories. Magic wells. Trees that speak. Mates who recognize each other across battlefields and ruin everyone’s lives.”

Lia did not smile.

Serali’s own smile faded.

The fire seemed suddenly too loud.

“What?” Serali said.

Lia’s gaze was steady, and that steadiness frightened Serali more than alarm would have.

“There are old magics,” Lia said carefully, “that do not behave like spells. They cannot be cast or dispelled in the ordinary way. They do not wait to be invited” ”

Serali’s hand tightened around the cord at her wrist.

“If this is about my magic returning—”

“It is not.”

“Then say what you mean.”

“I am trying to say only what I should.”

Serali stared at her.

A terrible suspicion unfolded in her, not formed enough to name, but large enough to cast a shadow.

“Is something wrong with me?” she asked.

The question came out smaller than she intended.

Lia heard it. Serali knew she heard it because the healer’s face altered, grief passing across it too quickly to be hidden.

“No,” Lia said. “Nothing is wrong with you.”

“Then why are you looking at me like that?”

“Because I think something may be happening to you that you did not choose.”

Serali’s throat tightened.

“Well,” she said, voice dry as ash, “that narrows it down.”

Lia bowed her head once. “Yes. I walked into that.”

Serali did not laugh.

Neither did Lia.

The fire gave a soft crack in the grate.

Serali looked at the door. At the distance from window to bed. At Lia’s case on the table. At the porcelain cup. At everything except the place in her chest that had begun to ache.

“What kind of happening?”

Lia sat back, considering each word before releasing it. “Have you felt drawn to anyone here?”

Serali’s face went blank.

“No.”

“Do you think of someone when you do not intend to?”

“No.”

“Do you dream of her?”

Chapter 46: Not Ownership

The room stopped.

Not because of the question.

Because of the pronoun.

Her.

Serali’s fingers went numb around the tether.

Lia’s eyes lowered, briefly. Not in triumph. In regret.

Serali smiled, but it felt wrong on her face. “You should leave.”

“Serali—”

“I said leave.”

Lia did not move.

That was a mistake.

Her gaze flicked to the porcelain cup on the side table. Close enough. Breakable. Sharp if she got the angle right. “If you are here to tell me your queen put something in my head, I will break that cup and open your throat with it before the guard gets through the door.”

Lia’s expression did not change, but her body went very still.

“No one put anything in your head.”

“You expect me to believe that?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“Because it is true. And because if I meant to manipulate you, I would choose something less ridiculous.”

Serali laughed again, harsh and ugly. “Truth. Everyone’s favorite new toy.”

Lia rose slowly. “I am not accusing you of anything. And I am not telling you that you owe anyone anything.”

“Then what are you telling me?”

“That there are bonds older than kingdoms.”

Serali’s stomach dropped.

“No.”

Lia stopped.

The word had not been loud. It did not need to be.

Serali shook her head once. “No.”

“I have not named it.”

“You don’t have to.”

Lia’s eyes softened.

Serali hated that most of all.

“No,” Serali said again, because if she said it enough times perhaps the world would remember how to obey. “Those are stories.”

“Sometimes.”

“Breeding songs for noble girls. Ways to make arranged marriages sound like destiny. A pretty leash.”

“It has been used that way.”

“It is that way.”

“It does not have to be.”

Serali’s laugh broke in the middle. “Listen to yourself.”

Lia did.

The honesty of that pause nearly undid her.

“In Lyehira, the songs always end with heirs,” Serali said. “Conveniently.”

“That says more about Lyehira than about the bond.”

Serali’s mouth twisted. “So the old magic does not care whether anyone gets a useful child out of it?”

“The old magic is older than noble ledgers,” Lia said. “It does not consult inheritance law.”

“How inconsiderate of it.”

“Very. Courts have been offended for centuries.”

Serali looked down at the tether around her wrist. “And when the bond is inconvenient?”

“Then courts lie about it. Bury it. Marry around it. Pretend desire and duty are the same thing until everyone involved forgets how to breathe.”

“You make it sound charming.”

“I make it sound like court.”

Serali turned away, one hand pressed to her sternum.The ache was there. It had been there since the dream, perhaps before: a bruise under the ribs that warmed when Allandra entered and worsened when she left.

No.

No.

Captivity did strange things to the mind. Fear memorized footsteps. Hunger mistook bread for mercy. A lonely woman dreamed of her captor because her captor held the keys.

That was all.

That had to be all.

“Is this why she came yesterday?” Serali asked.

Lia was silent.

Serali looked over her shoulder.

The silence answered.

Her fury came so fast it was almost a relief.

“She knows.”

Lia said nothing.

“She knows?”

“I cannot speak for the queen.”

“You just did.”

“No,” Lia said, quieter. “I spoke for old magic.”

“Do not dress this up.”

“I am trying not to.”

Serali’s voice sharpened. “Did she send you?”

“No.”

“Did she ask you to prepare me?”

“No.”

“Did she ask you to find out if I felt it?”

Lia hesitated.

The hesitation was a wound.

Serali’s mouth parted.

Then she smiled, slow and cold. “Ah.”

“Serali—”

“There it is.”

“No,” Lia said, with more force now. “Not like that.”

“Then how?”

“She asked if you were healing. She asked if the bond, if there was one, could harm you. She did not ask me to report whether you wanted her.”

“That is a very narrow innocence.”

“Yes,” Lia said. “It is.”

Serali stared at the healer, trying to decide whether that was true.

The worst part was that she thought it might be.

Lia drew a breath and stepped away from the table, leaving space between them like an offering. “I came because if you are feeling it, you deserve to know you are not mad.”

Serali flinched.

There. Too close. Too exact.

Lia saw, and her voice gentled. “You are not weak for feeling drawn. You are not foolish. You are not betraying yourself.”

“Stop.”

“It does not mean you trust her.”

“Stop.”

“It does not mean you forgive her.”

“I said stop.”

“And it does not mean she owns you.”

Serali went silent.

The words landed in a place she had not known was listening.

Lia held her gaze.

“A bond is not ownership,” the healer said. “It is not consent. It is not a command. It is not a debt. If the old magic has recognized something between you, that recognition belongs to you as much as to her. You may reject it. You may question it. You may hate it. You may take time.”

Serali’s throat worked.

“Can it be broken?” she asked.

Lia did not answer quickly.

That was answer enough.

Serali looked away.

“It can be ignored,” Lia said.

Serali laughed softly. “That sounds like no.”

“It can be resisted.”

“That also sounds like no.”

“It can be made meaningless by choice.”

Serali looked back at her. “Can it?”

“Yes.”

There was no hesitation that time.

Lia stepped closer, slowly enough that Serali could refuse the distance.

“You are not a thing carried by fate from one owner to another,” she said. “Whatever this is, if it is this, it does not outrank your will.”

Serali wanted to believe her.

That was the dangerous part.

She sank down onto the edge of the bed, suddenly aware of how tired she was. The tether pooled at her feet. Morning light touched the cord and made it look almost soft.

Almost.

“What does it feel like?” she asked, hating herself for it.

Lia’s expression changed. Not surprise. Understanding.

“For some, peace,” she said. “For some, hunger. For some, recognition. For others, irritation so profound they mistake it for hatred for several years.”

Serali looked up despite herself.

“Several years?”

“I am old. I have seen people be very stupid for a very long time.”

A laugh escaped Serali before she could kill it.

It hurt.

Lia’s mouth curved faintly. “It may begin as dreams. Awareness. The sense of a person before they enter a room. Feeling calmer near them despite very good reasons not to. Feeling unsettled when they are gone. A desire to be understood by them, specifically, even if you would rather swallow glass than admit it.”

Serali stared at the floor.

Every word was a hook.

“No,” she whispered.

Lia did not argue.

Good.

If Lia had argued, Serali might have broken something.

“I hate her,” Serali said.

The words came out flat.

Lia said, “Perhaps.”

Serali looked up sharply. “Perhaps?”

“You have reason to.”

“I do.”

“Yes.”

“She kept me in a dungeon.”

“Yes.”

“She threatened me.”

“Yes.”

“She left me in the dark.”

“Yes.”

“She is still keeping me here.”

“Yes.”

Each agreement struck like a stone placed carefully on a grave.

Serali’s eyes burned.

“Then how can this be real?” she demanded.

Lia’s face was very sad.

“Because real things are often badly timed.”

“That is a stupid answer.”

“It is the answer I have.”

Serali scrubbed a hand over her face, then regretted it when her wrist ached.

Lia did not move to help.

Another mercy.

For a long time, Serali listened to her own breathing.

Then she said, “Does she want it?”

Lia’s gaze sharpened with pity and caution both.

Serali hated herself for asking. Hated that she needed to know. Hated that some part of her had leaned toward the answer before it came.

“I cannot speak for her,” Lia said.

“Liar.”

“I can only tell you what I know.”

“Then tell me what you know.”

Lia considered.

“She is afraid of harming you further,” she said.

Serali’s mouth twisted. “That is not what I asked.”

“It may be the answer that matters.”

“It isn’t.”

Lia’s silence stretched.

Then, carefully, “She is fighting herself.”

Serali looked down.

Something in her chest gave a small, traitorous pull.

She dug her nails into her palm until it hurt.

“Good,” she said.

Lia did not contradict her.

Good.

Let Allandra fight herself. Let her ache. Let her pace her beautiful palace and learn what it was to want something she had no right to take.

Let her suffer.

Serali closed her eyes.

The problem was that the thought did not satisfy.

It only made the ache sharper.

“When will she tell me?” Serali asked.

Lia’s voice was quiet. “That is for her to answer.”

“She should have told me already.”

“Yes.”

The agreement shocked Serali into looking up.

Lia held her gaze. “I understand why she has not. That does not mean I think silence is harmless.”

“Then why don’t you tell me plainly?”

“Because I am not the one bound to you.”

Serali’s breath caught.

There it was. Not the word, not fully, but close enough that the room seemed to ring with it.

Bound.

Lia looked toward the tether at Serali’s wrist and winced faintly, as if only then hearing what she had said.

“Poor choice,” she murmured.

Serali gave a small, broken laugh.

“Yes.”

Lia reached for her case. “I will come again tonight to check the bandage.”

“Will you ask more rude questions?”

“Almost certainly.”

“Will you answer any?”

“When I can.”

Serali looked toward the window.

The sea glittered beyond the terraces, obscene with freedom.

“Lia.”

The healer paused.

“If I asked you to help me leave, would you?”

Lia went very still.

The silence stretched long enough to become an answer, but Serali waited anyway.

“No,” Lia said at last.

Serali nodded once, because she had expected it.

Then Lia added, “Not today.”

Serali looked at her.

Lia’s face was unreadable again, healer and old fae and servant of the crown all layered into one careful mask.

“That is not a promise,” Lia said.

“No,” Serali replied. “It is a door pretending to be a wall.”

Lia’s mouth twitched. “Perhaps.”

She moved to the door, then stopped with her hand on the latch.

“One more thing,” she said.

Serali braced herself.

“If you feel calmer when she comes, that does not mean you are safe.”

Serali’s jaw tightened.

“And if you feel afraid of her, that does not mean the bond is false.”

Serali looked away.

Lia opened the door.

“But your fear is wiser than the bond right now,” she said. “Listen to it too.”

Then she left.

The guard outside murmured something. Lia answered. The door closed.

Serali sat on the edge of the bed, wrist tethered, bandages clean, sunlight warm on her bare feet.

For a long time, she did not move.

Then she reached under the mattress and found the hairpin she had hidden there. She held it in her palm, feeling its narrow metal bite into her skin.

A plan. A possibility. A small, sharp proof that she was still hers.

Her gaze drifted to the door.

Allandra knew.

Allandra had known yesterday, when she sat across from Serali with her hands locked around the chair to keep from reaching. Allandra had known when she said she did not know what to call it. Allandra had known and still left Serali to discover the shape of the thing from Lia’s careful omissions.

Serali should have been furious.

She was furious.

Underneath the fury was something else, something old magic or madness had no right to place there.

Recognition.

“No,” Serali said to the empty room.

The lamps did not answer. The sea did not answer. The tether did not answer.

Somewhere in the palace, perhaps, Allandra breathed.

Serali felt the thought like a hand pressed lightly against the inside of her ribs.

She closed her fist around the hairpin until it hurt, and began to plan.