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"Rise and shine."
I jolted awake at the familiar feeling of Carolyn's hand over my forehead.
I tried to sit up but she held my head in place, and I didn't have the energy to resist yet. I let out my breath in a huff and relaxed into the pillow as I took stock of the surroundings. This wasn't the exam room I'd been in--... however long ago all of that was, but it also definitely wasn't home or the waiting room.
"Wh--" I cleared my throat and tried again. "What happened?"
"Mazer decided a couple seconds in that you should probably be asleep for the changes, so he put you under."
"He can just… do that?"
"Evidently." Carolyn cast her gaze meaningfully down my legs but when I tried to free my hands from under the heavy white blanket she caught me and stopped me again. "We should take this slow."
I squinted up at her and cast my gaze around the room. It did feel a little gigantic, probably from the slightly different distance between my eyes, but the more distracting thing right now was the nose in the middle of my vision.
I renewed my efforts to extract my hands from under the blanket and Carolyn let me hold them up in front of me this time. To say 'the fur was back' would be the understatement of the century. Fluffy golden-brown fuzz covered everything in sight aside from my palms and finger tips, but it wasn't a really thick coat. It fluffed out a bit but the thing that really sold the illusion was that my skin tone had shifted to perfectly match the wispy little hairs. I flexed my fingers, tapping the tips together. I expected to hear the muted click of nails on nails, but instead I felt skin against skin, just as sensitive to texture as they always were. The only real difference was that the skin there was black and smooth to the point of being a little shiny, but like leather-- which I supposed would make sense for skin.
It only took a couple flexes to feel like I had a sense of the shape of my hands, so I felt my face next, immediately noticing the peach fuzz and what could only be called a snout. My face was still relatively flat, and I didn't have much of a brow to speak of, but now my nose and upper lip had merged into a delicate little protrusion right in the middle of my face. It still probably only stuck out about as far as my nose had before.
"Xander is going to kill me."
"Xander?" Carolyn sounded incredulous.
"I probably look just like her fursona now, in a different color I guess, but she is going to seethe over this."
"I don't know whether it is adorable or irritating that you are once again immediately leaping to consider how someone else might feel rather than yourself. How do you feel about this?"
"Well I haven't looked in a mirror yet but I have to assume I look pretty fucking adorable."
"Thats nothing new." Carolyn pulled out her phone and tapped at the screen for a moment. "Here, take a selfie for posterity too."
I pushed down the blanket and sat up. I made a habitual grunt at the effort, but It felt performative and unnecessary now. It seemed absurd that sitting up had ever been something that could be considered exertion, but now it was effortless.
I smiled as I looked down. The way my lips moved felt foreign but looking down and feeling happy was completely familiar. At some point I'd been relieved of my clothes, so I could see how pink my chest was now. My stomach was also pink, but there weren't any auxiliary udders there. I patted at the fur on the tops of my thighs, and pulled the blanket aside to check my hooves.
As Carolyn had predicted, there wasn't much change there. I could still feel the little toe beans, but the nail/claw hybrid that Carolyn had designed was now a step (ha) in the direction of a genuine hoof. The growth was softer now, like a fingernail rather than a claw, but much thicker than my nails were. I wasn't looking forward to trimming them, but It wasn't like I was never going to have to care for Carolyn's version either.
I finally took the phone that Carolyn was holding out to me and held up the screen to see my reflection. Whatever plans I might have had to take in the detail of my new nose was completely derailed by my now fully grown horns. Each one was a smooth curve, perfectly located to be gripped and tugged--
I focused on just taking the damn selfie and took a couple extra with a wink and my tongue poking out for good measure.
"So how long was I out?" I handed Carolyn back her phone and watched as she immediately sent my selfies to my group text with her and Deyha. I heard my phone ding from somewhere across the room as Carolyn finally put her phone away.
"Not long, maybe ten minutes at most, but after the initial frenzy to sedate you and remove constricting garments the process continued pretty smoothly."
"Was I reacting badly?"
Carolyn shook her head. "No, but it only took a moment for Mazer to realize that it would take a lot of mana to bring about your transformation."
"Sorry."
Carolyn squinted. "I'm going to bite you for that later. Right on your sensitive new teats, mark my words."
I pulled the blanket up to cover my chest but Carolyn just shook her head. "Maddie, Maddie, Maddie."
"What?"
"Nothing. Just never change.-- I mean, changing is fine, the new look is very cute, but never stop being yourself."
"You're being weird." I pulled the blanket tighter and swung my hooves off the edge of the couch.
"Yeah, I guess. And I don't want you to feel bad but I'm a little surprised just how far off I was on your ideal shape."
I shrugged. "I don't think you were that far off. You based everything you did off of what I was able to express to you, and besides, I never would have asked you to make my face like this or my horns this big."
"Oh? Why not?"
I groaned and rubbed my eyes. "Because despite everything I do still want to look normal enough to not draw unwanted attention. Like, how am I ever going to stand being in public now?"
It was Carolyn's turn to shrug now. "Do like I do? Stop caring? And besides, there are still places that you can go be social without feeling that strange."
"Really?" My tone was heavy with doubt, but Carolyn nodded and pressed on.
"Anywhere people wear costumes they will just assume you have a particularly good one, so parties, ren fairies, all sorts of conventions… You'll still have options."
"Yeah." I grumbled. I was determined to hold onto this sour feeling for some reason. "I didn't exactly like going out in public before I came to the farm anyways."
"Nobody said growing up was easy." Carolyn ruffled my hair and chuckled as I leaned into the touch. "I'm surprised the whole 'your body my choice' arrangement fell apart as fast as it did."
"You can still mod me if you want. I know you aren't the biggest fan of fur."
Carolyn shook her head. "You'll be hard pressed to convince me to change you from your subconscious ideal, and besides, we had better work on paying off this little mod first."
"Oh… yeah… is Mazer okay?"
"He's fine. I think he's just giving us a smidge of space while you acclimate."
"Did he end up using the spare crystals?"
"Sadly, yes. And then some."
"Yikes."
"I don't think you'll need to worry. He was telling me that there's no due date on when we need to deliver the recuperated mana. Ordinarily, he would have specified a ten year repayment window but he's found that some people tend to have higher output. For instance, his wives paid a seven year debt in just one year, so for someone as ravenously horny as you I figure we could have this filled up in less than a week." Carolyn held up the larger crystal that I'd seen before we started.
"And how many of those do we need to fill?"
"Need? Maybe ten. But how many do we get to fill?--" she squeezed the crystal and it began to expand, growing a green rubbery looking film that grew and grew until it was the size of a backpack. Carolyn held the glob in her lap as it coalesced and features gained definition. Most obviously a pair of boobs, as well as a stomach. The head, arms, and legs however ended in little stumps, really driving home the sex doll aesthetic. Carolyn hugged it around the stomach and steadily I began to feel a matching sensation hugging me in turn.
"Fuck."
Carolyn grinned maniacally as she groped the chest with one hand but my eyes were immediately drawn to her other as she reached down to the slit at the bottom and plunged two fingers in, she turned and manuevered her arm so that I could see her fingers wiggling around in the transparent gel, as if I couldn't fucking feel them inside myself right now.
My breath came out in a huff and I pulled my thighs together as if to trap her hand there. "Carolyn…" I spoke through clenched teeth.
"Right, right, later. But you can't blame me for being hyped about this." She held the blob as it sucked itself back into the crystal, once again looking completely innocent and ordinary.
"I think I'm still going to manage to blame you. What am I going to wear to get home?"
"Your clothes are over there." she gestured across the room to the pile of fabric. "Mazer mended and resized them. He assured me it was absolutely no trouble."
"And you believe that?"
"No." Carolyn chuckled. "But what can you do? It was a very kind gesture and clearly he doesn't want us to feel bad about it."
"I suppose." I bundled the blanket up and dropped it on the couch as I stood at last. I was prepared for a little bit of wobbling or unsteadiness, but there wasn't really any difficulty to speak of. Between my tail and however much more my hips had filled out, my balance was remarkably low-centered and easy to maintain.
Carolyn hadn't stood up yet, but I still had a feeling I'd gotten even shorter than before. She had only managed to get me down to five feet but I had the feeling I'd lost another four to six inches easily.
I debated asking her to stand just so I could find out immediately just how fucked I was, but clothes seemed to be the more pressing issue.
True to Mazer's word, the clothes fit perfectly-- better than they had in the first place even. I had never bothered with getting tailored clothes before but if nothing else this was a big move toward selling me on the concept. Clothes that fit right felt nice.
Lastly, I picked up the hat. I half expected to see a couple holes cut into the top to accommodate my horns, but it didn't take much of an inspection to see that it was unchanged.
"Try it on." Carolyn stood and picked it back up from where I'd dropped it next to my bag.
"There's no way it fits."
"Trust me." She held it out with one hand while she got her phone with her other.
I wanted to argue, but it also occurred to me that wouldn't be very trusting of me. I sighed and lifted it into place. I felt a little ridiculous as I struggled to line up the horns with the inner brim of the hat, but once I did the hat settled in place with no issue.
"Uh… what?"
"Mazer made an illusion for it. The cap section isn't actually there, but anything that passes through the hole in the middle will be hidden by the glamour. Take a look." She snapped a picture and turned the phone to face me. As she had said, it just looked like a normal hat, but when I reached up past the brim to touch my horns they were still very much there.
There were a couple knocks on the door before Mazer stepped through, he smiled kindly, as though he hadn't just expended ten years worth of mana in a single sitting. "Ah, everything fits. Lovely."
"It does, thank you. And thanks for doing… all this? I never could have anticipated it would be so much."
Mazer waved dismissively. "It was nothing.-- well, not actually nothing but… you know what I mean."
"How did you make the hat trick the camera too?" I gestured at Carolyn's phone and he followed my gaze. I wondered for a moment if he'd be able to follow the abrupt subject change but he smiled even wider.
"Well spotted." He clasped his hands together. "It actually doesn't fool the camera. The phone is very faithfully displaying reality as it is, but the illusion still takes effect on your perception of the image on the screen."
"So If I sent the photo to someone who didn't know the hat had an illusion-- or rather had never seen it in person. What would they see?"
"Same as you. There isn't a range constraint on illusions."
"That's… a little terrifying."
Mazer nodded "ah, I can see you are following the implication to some logical extremes. I won't say that such illusions aren't out there but… well, it's best to cultivate a healthy skepticism for some things, but there's also a point where doubting every aspect of your reality would be detrimental to your health. I'd argue that this hat and the glamour I used earlier today are fairly harmless."
"I… suppose. And thank you, this was already my favorite hat but you've made it so very much better. I honestly can't believe you spent ten years of mana at the drop of a hat just for this."
"Oh, no no. It wasn't that expensive." Mazer glanced at Carolyn. "I don't want to give the wrong impression, I… apologize if this seems greedy, but I can comfortably accumulate that quantity of mana in just a couple months and it would have sustained my health for twice that long. I have well over a century's supply stored away, but the ten year figure was merely an estimate of how quickly a single individual could comfortably accumulate a quantity of mana to cover the cost and ah… fee."
"Oh. Can I ask what percent the fee is?"
Carolyn nudged me. "We aren't arguing about the price, I'm sure she is just curious."
"That's quite all right, and I'm sure you know first hand how the price of a service and its materials are often very different but… well, to put it simply, I emptied five crystals and am asking that you fill ten."
"Oh. wow."
"I am happy to renegotiate if that seems unfair.--"
"No! No. thats-- I mean I can't say that I have a concept of fairness for this but your skills are worth-- ugh. I fucking hate capitalism. I think it will be fine. Carolyn seems to think we will have the first crystal charged in a couple weeks."
Mazer's eyes sparkled with mirth. "Oh? Is that so?"
"Maddie~" Carolyn hissed under her breath.
"What? That's what you said isn't it?"
Mazer was laughing openly now, and a bratty part of me delighted in the rare expression of embarrassment from Carolyn. On one hand, I knew it was evil of me to push, but on the other it was so fun and I had a feeling I'd enjoy her revenge to some degree as well.
"Honestly--" I pressed on, ignoring the way Carolyn was nudging me. "-- She's so excited to have the crystal thingy that I think she would pay you to regularly exchange it for a new one."
"Maddie!" Carolyn hissed more insistently.
"What? Am I wrong?" I turned to her and she rubbed her face.
Mazer folded his arms, seeming to enjoy this display of embarrassment just as much as me. "I'm sure we could come to some sort of arrangement, though I'd caution you to use some moderation for the sake of Madeline's health."
"My health?"
I looked from Carolyn to him.
"Gods." Carolyn grumbled. "Maddie, he explained the apparatus before the procedure. Do you remember the talk about transferring sensation? Siphoning energy? Rendering you unable to orgasm?" she grit her teeth as she spoke the last detail and I felt my face warm up.
"Oh."
"I swear you have the memory of a goldfish sometimes."
"It doesn't look like a voodoo doll!"
"We are not discussing this further here." Carolyn took my hand and squeezed it. "Sorry about that, Doctor was there anything else we needed to discuss?"
"Nope, you're all set. Please reach out if you have any concerns."
Even as I thanked him, Carolyn was pulling me toward the door. I only had a chance to wave at the receptionist as I was pulled outside and toward the truck.
"I'm sorry for embarrassing you in front of your idol."
She said nothing as she opened the passenger door for me and lifted my hand to help me up.
I held my tail out of the way as she closed the door and watched with growing concern as she walked around to the driver's side.
This time she opened both doors and began rummaging in the back seat.
"Are you mad at me?"
"Hmm? No."
I waited for her to elaborate further but she seemed focused on her task.
"Is everything alright?"
At last she found what she was looking for and met my gaze. "You remember how I promised not to start anything I wouldn't finish?"
"Yes?"
"Well, think of it this way, pet. You've started something, and I am cordially ordering you to be a good girl and finish it." Carolyn set the crystal down on the seat and it once again grew into the translucent green sex toy. Before it had even finished growing she was inserting a bullet vibrator between the leg stubs before bucking it in place in the back seat.
"Here's what's going to happen." Carolyn hopped up into the front seat. "That 'doll' is going to stay active until you've charged that crystal."
"The whole time‽"
"Yes, shush. We will of course re-evaluate if there are concerns for your health but you can consider this a little no-nut November." She started the truck and I buckled myself in.
I could feel both seat belts, crossing over my chest in both directions with a doubly secure lap belt, and while she hadn't activated the vibrator it still had a presence.
Part of me really wanted to complain and argue about the severity of this punishment, but a much more persuasive part of me was extremely excited by Carolyn's assertive behavior.
"Any questions?" She held up her phone where I could see the screen as she started the vibrator control app.
"Am I allowed to cum?"
"If you're able, it's no problem."
"Will you turn that off if I do?" I pointed at the phone and she contemplated for a moment.
"I'll turn it off whenever you ask. The doll will remain active, but that does not mean you won't be offered any respite from its effects. It's simply up to you to decide how much stimulation you can handle, or rather how much of a hurry you are in to charge it up." She turned the vibrator on and raised the intensity until it was audible from the back seat before releasing the controls again.
"Ah~ okay." I gasped.
"So, should I set the vibrator to function off of sound, speed, or acceleration?"
I thought about the trip ahead of us. Rush hour would be starting soon which meant stop and go traffic for an hour at least. "Speed. For now."
"Very well." She toggled the settings before switching to the map program.
"Let me know if you need me to turn it off or if there are any other side effects."
I only managed a nod as she pulled out of the parking space. At low speeds the vibration was quite low and wavered occasionally even as she coasted slowly to the first stop sign. I decided to take off the hat and I held the edge of the seat between my legs as I caught my breath.
The doubled sensation of the seat vibrating, as well as the texture from the back seat on my simulated bare skin was enough to distract me in the first place. The addition of the vibrator kicking back in as Carolyn accelerated was enough to have me gasping again.
"Fuck." I whined as it grew in intensity.
"You alright, babygirl?"
I spared Carolyn a glance. She seemed exceptionally pleased with herself.
"It's a bit much." I whimpered.
"Do you need me to tone it down already?"
"No, it's just ah~" I broke off as she accelerated again. "I don't know how I'm going to maintain composure."
"Oh--" Carolyn grinned even as she continued to watch the road. "--But I don't want you to maintain composure. Even if you scream until my ears ring, I'll still consider this a worthwhile venture."
"Jesus." I muttered under my breath and reached out to grab the handle on the dash in front of me. The vibrations were growing in intensity as she sped up to merge onto the highway, and the seatbelts tightened against my chest as she slowed back down to slip into traffic.
We didn't quite come to a stop but I still took the moment of lower speed to get a deeper breath in, shaky as it might be.
"Look at that!" Carolyn tapped at the steering wheel. "We're already a tenth of the way home! You're doing so well!"
I only whined in reply as she changed lanes and accelerated again. There was a jolt as she hit a pothole or something and it was hard to think she didn't do it on purpose.
"You know…" she chatted even when I didn't reply. "Since you don't have fingernails anymore I bet they feel really nice now."
"Thought you didn't want that sort of distraction." I grit my teeth as she reached full highway speed at last.
"Oh, not on me, at least not while I'm driving, but don't you think it would feel so nice right now? Nobody is looking, you could just relax into the sensations and finger yourself."
"There's no relaxing into this." I whined and pushed against the floorboard, flexing my back in an instinctive effort to escape the pressure from the vibrator.
"Well that won't do." Carolyn reached out to tap at her phone and the vibrations ceased.
I slumped in the seat and enjoyed the brief reprieve as she flicked back to the map.
"I guess it makes sense, I don't know why a meager vibrator would be enjoyable after how much you've been spoiled."
"I'm not spoiled."
"Okay Mrs. 'cant cum without help'." Carolyn glanced past me as she checked her mirrors and merged back into the slow lane. "Now you probably can't cum at all, so I figure all that really matters is the effort you put in."
"You want me to masturbate while you drive?"
"I just think it would be the most constructive use of your time right now."
"Uh huh." I looked over my shoulder at the green blob in the back seat. "Is there any reason I can't just finger the jello battery instead?"
"Where do you come up with these names?" Carolyn shook her head. "No, that's also fine."
"Mkay."
Before Carolyn could object I unbuckled and crawled over the center console between the front seats.
"Honestly, I should probably stay back here to keep from distracting you."
"You mean to deprive me of a show?"
"That too." I buckled myself into the middle seat. It was trippy to feel my own hands touching me as I got myself situated, but the doll didn't transfer feelings of movement, so the sensations of texture and pressure were less disarming in isolation.
"Are you actually going to finger the toy?"
"Should I not?" I unbuckled the doll and laid it across my lap.
I expected a little bit of further snark but Carolyn just shrugged.
"Do we know what exactly charges the crystal? Or is there a feedback mechanism to tell what's working?"
"Not sure, and I don't know." Carolyn adjusted the rearview mirror so that she could see me.
"Could be anything then." I muttered to myself.
Pressing on my fingers into the gel didn't cause any matching movement on my own skin, and that made it fairly unsurprising that squeezing the neck of the apparatus did nothing to my bloodflow or ability to breathe. I could however tell the difference between soft and sharp touches and slapping my hand against the hip left a sting on my own side.
I heard Carolyn's huff of amusement and looked up in time to catch her gaze for an instant.
"I didn't think you were into spanking."
"I'm not." I lied as I rolled the doll over in my lap so that it was belly down. "I'm simply testing out your new toy."
"Darn."
I shook my head and trailed my hands over the back. Already I'd found the first situation to make me miss having fingernails. Not enough to want them back of course, but I'd probably end up 3d printing some sort of keyring gadget to help make up for the loss. Even without nails the sensation was nice, and I quickly felt myself warm up under the simulated skin contact. The knowledge that it was my own hands was enough to keep from setting off the ticklish instincts, and I was easily able to close my eyes and bask in the sensations.
Everything had happened so fast. Yesterday the idea of actually getting pregnant was an impossibility, and sure, Deyha still couldn't get me pregnant, but it was just a matter of time now, right?
I wrapped my fingers around the little stub of a tail. Pulling didn't do as much as usual but squeezing it sent renewed waves of heat between my legs and up into my core.
Soon anyone with access to this doll would be able to do this to me. They could plunge their fingers into the gel approximation of my own cunt and my own body would be oh-so happy to feel it. I pulled harder on the tail as I worked two fingers in.
The doll provided no resistance; parting for my fingers mirroring the bewildering sensations inside me.
My breathing became frantic again as I focused on working my fingers on the doll, and it no longer felt like a connected action.
This green jelly battery was putty in my hands, yielding freely under my touch as I held it in place, but the sensations I received were cruel and powerful. Fingers more reminiscent of Deyha's were forcing their way in and holding my tail as leverage.
But unlike with Deyha there was no need to worry about miscommunication. I whined and gasped under my breath as the fingers used me and my palm slapped against the doll as I retaliated against it.
However, no matter how much I lost myself in the touch, there was no mounting crest of pleasure. Any progress I might have imagined toward an orgasm vanished the moment I removed my fingers and all I really had to show for it was some sore muscles in my arm and hips.
"Having fun?" Carolyn half full turned to call over her shoulder and I scowled at her.
"You know how I feel about edging."
"That you'll do anything for approval?"
It took me a moment to piece together how her response could be considered relevant. I groaned and rested my arms on the back of the doll.
"No, I hate edging but I will do most anything for approval."
"But you won't edge for my approval?"
"What do you think I've been doing for the last few minutes?" Exasperation slipped into my tone and Carolyn cackled.
"Okay, okay. Do you want me to teach you how to deactivate the crystal?"
"Yes!"
Carolyn's laughter renewed. "Then I'll show you when we get home if you are on extra good behavior."
I rolled my eyes and dug out my phone as she continued to get her giggles at my expense. Deyha had texted back.
Whoa, I wasn't expecting you to get a whole makeover. What brought this about?
I took a deep breath.
It's a side effect of the fertility treatment I guess.
A little banner notification popped up on Carolyn's phone as I replied and I took note of the arrival time.
You're welcome to test drive it when we get back to the farm in 43 minutes, but don't take it personally if I don't cum.
Sounds an awful lot like a challenge. Alright, I'm game.
I groaned as Carolyn tapped her phone and had it read out the messages for her.
"Oh Maddie, you are so fucked. I hope you know that."
"I do." I set the doll aside and leaned against the window. "I really d-" I paused to yawn and rubbed my eyes.
"Feeling a little drained?"
Instead of replying I propped the crystal doll up against the door. As I hoped, it made for a pretty comfortable pillow.
I braced myself to catch a little grief for taking a nap but Carolyn just put on her music and began to hum soothingly as she navigated through traffic.