Chapter 237: A Whole New World To Explore
[KAWAI]
Tamiko’s heart felt heavy as he headed towards the palace. He couldn’t deny the way that his heart was seeking him out. He was losing the battle between his sanity and the state he so very wished to be a part of.
It was a truth that he had known the moment his heart beat faster when Kosta ran away. It wasn’t supposed to be like that and yet it had become the one thing that had defined his movements.
He was bothered by the way that Kosta had reacted and he felt stupid for trying to force a rejection down his Erasthai’s throat. Granted, he was a broken kid, but that didn’t mean he had to be the harshest of people with the man he had sworn to love.
There were so many things that he could have done along the way and yet none of all that had made sense to him. Perhaps he had been bound to be the monster he had always been scared of.
Would it ever be a difference though? Would it ever make the ache he was feeling disappear or was it just going to be one of the many emotions he would have to deal with when he flipped the switch on his humanity again?
Oh, but Tamiko was conflicted.
There seemed to be so many things that needed his attention and he wasn’t sure if this was the right path for him. Maybe he was deflecting like always, or maybe he was just spent from trying to make it out of the shadows alive.
Perhaps this was the one time he didn’t even have to play the strong man, right? But would it ever be okay for him?