Chapter 397 - 376 Second Update
The room was steeped in silence, where the drop of a pin could be heard. Zheng Nianru was anticipating an answer, but with the answer from her past life already known, what was there left to look forward to? Zheng Nianru let out a laugh, unwilling to wait for Zheng Congyuan’s lengthy discourse from a moral high ground—those doctrines of family virtues, state affairs, each word making her feel breathless. Zheng Nianru wanted to leave, finding herself inexplicably doing so, as senseless as the things she did that day.
She wanted to see how Zheng Congyuan would react upon her death. In this life, she was determined not to die after Zheng Congyuan.
"Nian Ru, you are still young, there are some things..." Zheng Congyuan began, but she wasn’t even clear about what she wanted; the luxury and material enjoyment in front of her were not enough. Once she had them, she would want something even better. No matter how fine her clothes were, even if they were unique, the next time she would still want better ones.
Even so, she wouldn’t be happy, recklessly splurging emotions, unable to find an outlet. One day, she would grow indifferent to what she now had, and start to think about marriage and childbirth, about giving her children a legitimate status.
Zheng Nianru laughed helplessly and abruptly, even her words sounded the same as before. So, even if she tested him with her death, the answer would still be the same.
Zheng Nianru couldn’t believe it, didn’t want to believe it. Clearly, she saw the emotions in Zheng Congyuan’s eyes, his yearning, his desire.
"Zheng Congyuan, what if I died right now?" Zheng Nianru suddenly spoke, not wanting to hear what Zheng Congyuan would say next; she was tired of it, and it was still the ending she could not change.
Even if she took away the state and the world he talked about, she still couldn’t have him.