Chapter 79 79 This is Fate. My Fate, and His Fate.
[I told myself that I would definitely help you get revenge. I will make that man suffer ten times, a hundred times more than you. But that person I respect the most, even though it was my past self's personality controlling my body by then, he was still my grandfather. He also gave me love. He wanted me to let go of all this hatred. But I can't do it. I am not my past self. I can't let go of this hatred either. That man, my father, I will never forgive him!]
[If only I could forget everything. But now, in the end, everything has come back to me. Grandpa, I'm sorry. This is fate. Even heaven won't let me spare that man. I wanted to be a deserter. A coward. If I couldn't remember anything, then I wouldn't have to be so torn. But now that I remember everything, I will take revenge on that man. I will make him suffer every pain in this world!]
[Grandfather, you didn't want me and that man, father and son, to fight each other. So, at the end of your life, you sent me to Japan. You wanted me to leave and not go back. But this hatred in my heart is like a burning sun. I am very thirsty. And only that man's blood can quench my thirst. So, you will understand me, right?]
[Mom, I know you still love that man. Even though he was so heartless that he kicked you out when you came to him, you still love that man. I know you don't want me to take revenge on that man. But I can't do it. I really can't!]
[I ran away. I forgot. But in the end, I have to face it all again. Everything has come back to me!]
[This is fate!]
[This is my fate. And his fate!]
The diary did not continue. But the girls who saw this diary entry felt as if their hearts were being gripped.
'So this was Hakuto's past?'
Kaguya, who was in class, suddenly stood up.
"Shinomiya, I think it's better not to do anything right now. Comforting him now would only expose us. And more importantly, he wouldn't want you to see him like this."
Arisu looked at Kaguya and said.
Kaguya clenched her fists. Her reason told her that Arisu was right. But her emotions told her that she wanted to be by Hakuto's side right now and comfort him.
Shouko also looked at Kaguya. "Shinomiya, Sakayanagi is right. You shouldn't act impulsively right now."
In the end, Kaguya dejectedly relaxed her clenched fists.
Her teeth tightly biting her lower lip, Kaguya looked at the diary's content. She could relate. That feeling of her heart being tightly gripped almost made Kaguya feel like she was suffocating.
Class 1-B.
Yukino was also restraining herself. She couldn't contact Hakuto at this time.
Class 1-C.
Megumi's eyelids lowered slightly. Her eyes were full of concern for Hakuto.
Erina and Alice looked at each other speechlessly. They also felt very heavy-hearted right now.
"Haku's father is really a piece of shit."
"That guy Hakuto, I didn't expect him to have such a past."
"Haku is in great pain. If Haku's mother had treated him badly, then Haku wouldn't be in so much pain. But precisely because Haku's mother poured so much love into him that it has led to the hatred in his heart now."
Alice seemed to have suddenly grown up.
Erina looked at Alice as if she had a realization, 'Love can make people grow, right, Alice?'
Sayuri looked at the diary and fell silent. Then, she suddenly felt a surge of resentment towards her own daughter.
If it weren't for her daughter, Hakuto wouldn't have had to remember these painful memories. It was her daughter who had killed Hakuto's other personality. It was her daughter who had made Hakuto remember this hatred.
'Eriri, even your mother can't help but feel like giving up on you!'
As a mother, Sayuri could better understand the pain in Hakuto's heart.
The mother's wish… The grandfather's love… These were the two hurdles in front of Hakuto, preventing him from taking revenge.
Because of these two hurdles, Hakuto had chosen to be a deserter. He had chosen to forget all of this.
But her daughter had made Hakuto remember everything.
Natsuki sighed softly. Then, she made a decision. She pushed open the door and walked into Hakuto's room.
She came before Hakuto. Looking at his vacant eyes, she pulled him up.
"First, dry your hair!"
As she spoke, she produced a hairdryer from somewhere and helped Hakuto dry his hair.
"Only for today. You can do anything you want to me."
Natsuki's words snapped Hakuto back to reality. He looked at Natsuki.
"Anything?"
"Yes. Even if..."
"Natsuki-chan, why? I wouldn't think you'd say something like that."
"It's nothing. It's just a clone. So I don't care."
Natsuki's eyes shifted slightly.
Hakuto saw through Natsuki's unease.
"Don't think so despicably of me. I like you cute girls. But I wouldn't be so despicable as to let you comfort me in this way."
Natsuki looked at Hakuto. "This is your only chance. Are you sure you want to give it up?"
"Natsuki, can you listen to a story?"
Natsuki knew what Hakuto wanted to say. But she still nodded.
Hakuto didn't say that the child was him. Instead, he used 'he' to refer to the child.
"Natsuki-chan, do you think he should take revenge?"
Looking at Hakuto in front of her, Natsuki knew that the answer she gave could trigger a series of consequences. But Natsuki still said, "I think he should do what is in his heart. Whether it's revenge, his mother and grandfather can understand him!"
"Really? Can his mother and grandfather understand him?"
"His mother already anticipated this situation. Otherwise, she wouldn't have said 'this time, I'm leaving him' at her deathbed. His grandfather also knew. Otherwise, he wouldn't have sent him to Japan at the end of his life."
"They did everything they could. If he still can't let go of the hatred in his heart, then just follow the hatred in his heart and take revenge!"
Natsuki knew that she might regret saying these words in the future. But she knew that she wouldn't regret it now. She didn't want to see Hakuto looking so lost and helpless again.