Chapter 68
Chapter 68: Go Ahead~ She Can’t Resist Anyway~
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“Can you… with me…”
The words reached her lips, but seemed blocked by something, unable to come out no matter what, her cheeks burning abnormally hot.
She wasn’t someone who understood emotions to begin with. The previous few incidents were all due to poison flared up, acting purely on bodily instinct.
Her mind was completely blank.
But to actually voice the thoughts in her heart with her own mouth…
She was terrified.
Afraid of being too abrupt and frightening Lin Muyu.
Afraid that after speaking, their relationship would return to that initial distance, unable to even maintain their current closeness as senior and junior sisters.
After all, her junior sister’s current closeness to her was probably thanks to her essence blood, right?
Her special essence blood could dilute suffering, and could even gradually make people forget some painful experiences.
Perhaps the current Lin Muyu had already forgotten about what happened before.
If she brought it up herself…
She couldn’t figure out what her junior sister truly thought of her, whether she only saw her as a senior sister, or had other thoughts.
Even less did she know how her junior sister viewed romantic feelings between women.
Thinking back to how her junior sister had resisted when she approached those previous times, she probably didn’t like her, and didn’t like romantic love between women either…
“Never mind…”
After saying this, Su Wanqing felt as if all her strength had been drained away, her tone carrying barely concealed disappointment, her voice dropping low.
“Huh?”
Lin Muyu was completely confused, seeing Su Wanqing’s suddenly dejected appearance, she asked in puzzlement.
“What’s wrong, Senior Sister? Is there something you can’t say? Are you facing some difficulty?”
Su Wanqing remained silent, offering no response.
Seeing Su Wanqing like this, Lin Muyu raised her small face, her tone full of certainty.
“Senior Sister, just tell me. As long as it’s not something too excessive, whatever it is, I’ll agree to it.”
Something excessive…
Su Wanqing’s fingers hanging at her sides curled slightly, that thought surging up from the depths of her heart. This matter…
Should be extremely excessive…
“It’s nothing, Junior Sister. This small matter, Senior Sister can handle it herself.”
Su Wanqing forced herself to gather her spirits, squeezing out a smile on her face, but that smile falling on her pale face appeared somewhat forced.
But this appearance of hers only made the doubts in Lin Muyu’s heart heavier.
Could it really be some unspeakable, excessive matter?
Lin Muyu was about to think carefully, but her head suddenly sent a sharp, stabbing pain, like a thin needle being driven straight in, determined to pierce through something invisible.
She felt momentarily dizzy. It seemed like some important matter had been forgotten by her?
But thinking again, if it could be easily forgotten, it probably wasn’t anything important.
But unwilling to give up, she tried to remember again, and the pain in her head surged up once more. Lin Muyu quickly stopped her thoughts.
If she continued thinking, her head would explode.
“Alright then, Senior Sister, if you have anything, you must tell me~”
She said this, then intimately leaned her head against Su Wanqing’s back, her nose filled with the light gardenia fragrance from the other’s body, her heart immediately feeling secure and full of safety.
After the matter of revenge was settled, Lin Muyu’s greatest wish was to continue living such peaceful, ordinary days.
She wasn’t someone who loved to make trouble by nature; tranquility was the preference carved into her bones.
“We’re here.”
Su Wanqing’s cool voice sounded, and Lin Muyu knew it was time to get off the flying sword.
After briefly saying goodbye to Su Wanqing, Lin Muyu returned to her simple little room.
“That little guy Xiao Bai hasn’t come back again? Where did she run off to?”
She walked around the room twice, looking left and right, but didn’t see that familiar white figure anywhere. She couldn’t help but let the corners of her mouth droop, a trace of loneliness floating in her eyes.
Xinlian had also specifically told her yesterday that she was going somewhere far away, and couldn’t sleep holding her like before for the next few days.
She was alone again.
Lin Muyu surveyed the room’s furnishings. Simple was simple, plain was plain enough, but no matter how she looked at it, it lacked that warm, cozy feeling.
“Since I’m going down the mountain this time anyway, why don’t I find some nice things and come back to properly decorate the room!”
Having made up her mind, she retrieved the 《Dog-Beating Staff Technique》 and 《Sun and Moon Reversal Technique》 from her bead.
She spread them on the table and began cultivating earnestly.
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Meanwhile, in another small room.
“I… I can’t even say it out loud…”
Su Wanqing clenched her fists tightly, her knuckles turning white, sharp nails digging deep into her palms, drawing blood, yet she seemed completely unaware, as if she couldn’t feel the pain.
“Su Wanqing, you really are a cowardly person.”
“She’s right in the next room. Go ahead~ She can’t resist you anyway~”
Suddenly, an unfamiliar voice rang out in her mind without warning, carrying a hint of temptation.
“You… who are you?!”
Su Wanqing jerked her head up, her eyes full of terror, looking around in all directions, but couldn’t see even a shadow.
“I am you, the most real you hidden in the depths of your heart.”
That voice was leisurely, carrying an alluring charm.
But listening carefully, it was exactly the same as her own voice, only with a few degrees more sinister darkness that she had never possessed.
“No… impossible. I could never have such filthy thoughts.”
Su Wanqing hugged her head and crouched down, her whole body trembling, no longer able to maintain her usual calm composure.
“Heh, what you hide in your heart, don’t you know yourself? Could you dare say you’ve never thought this way?”
That voice chuckled softly, like an all-knowing deity, effortlessly tearing away the dignity she desperately tried to maintain.
“I… I haven’t…”
Su Wanqing’s voice grew smaller and smaller, weak as a mosquito’s buzz. Even she couldn’t tell whether these words were meant for others to hear, or if she was deceiving herself.
“Haven’t? Then why did you act so decisively and smoothly those previous times?”
“That was because of the poison! The poison forced me!”
Su Wanqing seemed to grab onto a final lifeline, her voice suddenly rising, carrying a trace of madness as she argued.
“Oh? The first time was poison, but what about the second and third times?”
That voice questioned unhurriedly, each word like a knife.
“Was there really no way to stop? The third time was at Qinglan Sect~”
The merciless questioning completely punctured the excuse she had used countless times.
Su Wanqing was forced to stop struggling and face those thoughts in her heart that she dared not examine closely.
“I… I…”
She opened her mouth but couldn’t say a single word. The person who was usually as cool and ethereal as an immortal now looked like a lost child, disheveled and helpless.
“Or perhaps… you were already addicted to that feeling, even secretly yearning for it in your heart, right?”
“No! It’s not like that!”
Su Wanqing suddenly roared out, her hands desperately covering her ears, hurriedly reciting the Clear Heart Mantra.
As the incantation sounded, that voice instantly vanished without a trace, and her ears finally returned to quiet.
“This… could it be a heart demon?”
Su Wanqing panted, raising her hand to circulate spiritual energy. The wound on her palm quickly healed in the spiritual light, leaving not even a trace.
But looking at her clean palm, she couldn’t help but smile bitterly.
Her current cultivation level was still far from any bottleneck.
By normal logic, only those seniors stuck at a certain realm, doubting their own path, would easily develop heart demons.
But she… had attracted a heart demon because of these unclear, indescribable matters…
“Sigh.”
Su Wanqing let out a long sigh, curling up on the bed, wrapping herself into a ball. Her thin shoulders trembled slightly, looking so pitiful it made one’s heart tighten.
The night deepened bit by bit. Cool moonlight filtered through the window lattice, falling on her bloodless face, reflecting a trace of loneliness.
In this long night, who could truly understand the torment in her heart?