Chapter 73: Dont say it back
Fiona froze.
The words hung in the air between them like something fragile and luminous, too precious to touch. She did not expect an "I love you" from Caleb. Not tonight. Not like this—casual, soft, slipped in at the end of a simple goodnight as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
It was like her whole world stopped at that moment. The distant hum of the city outside her apartment window faded. The soft ticking of the clock on the wall disappeared. Everything narrowed down to just the two of them standing in the gentle glow of the living room lamp, inches apart, hearts suddenly beating far too loudly.
She couldn’t even respond.
Her lips parted, but no sound came out. Her mind raced in a thousand directions at once—joy, fear, disbelief, warmth, panic—all colliding at the same time. Caleb’s eyes, those steady, kind eyes she had grown to trust so deeply over the past months, were watching her with quiet patience. There was no pressure in them. No demand. Just open, honest affection.
Caleb noticed her silence immediately. A small, understanding smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. He took a gentle step closer, careful not to crowd her, and reached out to brush a stray lock of hair behind her ear with the lightest touch.
"Hey," he said softly, his voice warm and low, like a blanket wrapping around her racing thoughts. "Breathe, Fiona."
She did, drawing in a shaky breath that she hadn’t realized she’d been holding.
"I didn’t say it to make you panic," he continued, his tone gentle and reassuring. "I’m not in any hurry for you to say it back. Not even a little bit. I just... needed you to know. That’s all. I’ve been carrying it around for a while now, and tonight felt right. But there’s no clock on this. No deadline. No expectation."
Fiona’s eyes searched his face, still stunned. Her hands trembled slightly at her sides. She wanted to say something—anything—but the words were tangled somewhere deep inside her chest.
Caleb took her hands in his, his thumbs tracing slow, soothing circles over her knuckles. The warmth of his palms grounded her.
"I’m just glad I’m here," he said, his voice dropping even softer. "With you. Right now. Whether you can say it tonight, or next week, or months from now... or even if you never do in those exact words, that’s okay. I’m not going anywhere. I love being around you. I love the way you laugh at my terrible jokes. I love how focused you get when you’re working on something you care about. I love the little crease that appears between your brows when you’re thinking hard. I love all of it. And saying it out loud just made it feel more real. But your feelings are yours. They don’t have to match mine on my timeline."
He gave her hands a gentle squeeze, then lifted one to his lips and pressed a soft kiss to her knuckles.
"So take all the time you need," he murmured against her skin. "I’m happy just standing here with you. Happy that I get to be the one who gets to tell you how I feel. No pressure. No rush. Just... us."
Fiona felt tears prick at the corners of her eyes, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming relief and tenderness in his words. The tension in her shoulders slowly began to melt away. She still couldn’t speak, but she squeezed his hands back, hoping he could feel everything she wasn’t yet able to put into words.
Caleb smiled again—that quiet, patient smile that always made her feel safe—and leaned his forehead gently against hers.
"Lovely evening, Fiona," he whispered, echoing his earlier words with a hint of playful warmth. "I really do love you. And I’m really, really glad I’m here."
Clara paced back and forth across the living room of their cozy apartment, her bare feet making soft, agitated thuds against the wooden floor. The Sunday evening light filtered weakly through the half-drawn curtains, casting long shadows that seemed to mirror her darkening mood. It had been weeks—maybe longer—since things at work had gone the way she wanted. She felt invisible, like a ghost haunting the edges of conversations and decisions, never quite invited into the center.
Marcus sat on the couch, watching her with a mix of concern and quiet exhaustion. A half-empty mug of tea cooled on the coffee table in front of him. He had hoped for a peaceful evening—maybe ordering takeout, watching something mindless on TV, or simply curling up together. Instead, Clara was unraveling again, her voice sharp and frustrated as she vented.
"And then Katherine just... she completely ignored me!" Clara continued, her hands gesturing wildly. "I thought she’d include me in humiliating Fiona, you know? Like we’d be in on it together, making her squirm a little. But no. It’s like she cast me aside the moment it suited her. I’m just there for the grunt work, the background noise. Invisible! Do you know how that feels, Marcus? To be right there, ready to prove myself, and she acts like I don’t even exist?"
Marcus leaned forward, elbows on his knees, trying to keep his voice steady and soothing. "Clara, my dear, calm down. It’s Sunday evening. You should be relaxing, preparing for your Monday back at work—not doing this to yourself. You’re working yourself up into knots again."
Clara stopped pacing abruptly and whirled to face him, her eyes flashing with irritation. "You don’t get it, Marcus!" Her voice rose, echoing slightly in the small apartment. "It’s not just about today. It’s every day. I pour everything into that place, and for what? To be overlooked? To watch Katherine play her little games with Fiona while I’m left on the sidelines? It’s humiliating!"
Marcus sighed, running a hand through his hair. He stood up slowly, his tall frame unfolding from the couch with deliberate calm. He took a step toward her but stopped short when he saw the tension in her shoulders. "Hey, Clara... don’t get worked up. If you don’t want me here, I can leave so you can have some space—"
"No!" Clara interrupted quickly, her tone shifting from anger to something more vulnerable. She reached out and grabbed his arm, her fingers tightening around his sleeve. "Don’t leave."
Marcus paused, his expression softening as he looked down at her hand on his arm. The frustration in her voice had cracked, revealing the insecurity underneath. He gently covered her hand with his own, his thumb brushing over her knuckles in a reassuring rhythm.
"I’m not going anywhere," he said quietly, his voice low and steady. "I’m right here. But you’ve got to breathe, okay? Venting is one thing, but letting it eat you up inside... that’s not helping you. Tell me what you really need right now. Do you want me to listen? Do you want advice? Or do you just want me to hold you and let you rant until you’re done?"
Clara’s shoulders slumped a little. She didn’t let go of his arm, but she leaned into him slightly, the fight draining from her posture. The apartment felt quieter now, the distant sounds of traffic outside a faint backdrop to their conversation. Marcus pulled her closer, wrapping his arms around her in a gentle embrace. He rested his chin lightly on the top of her head, breathing in the familiar scent of her shampoo.
"I hate feeling like this," she mumbled against his chest, her voice muffled. "Like I’m not enough. Like everything I do is just... overlooked."
"You’re more than enough," Marcus murmured, rubbing slow circles on her back. "And Katherine’s games? They’re her problem, not yours. You’re smart, you’re driven, and you’ve got fire in you. If she can’t see that, maybe it’s time to stop measuring your worth by her approval. But tonight... tonight you don’t have to solve it all. Just let it out if you need to. I’ve got you."
Clara nodded against him, her grip on his shirt loosening just a bit. The fight that had been burning in her chest slowly ebbed away, replaced by a heavy, tired ache. She let herself lean fully into Marcus, her forehead resting against the solid warmth of his chest. His heartbeat was steady, reassuring, a quiet rhythm that seemed to say everything was going to be okay even when her mind insisted it wasn’t.
For a long moment, neither of them spoke. The apartment was quiet except for the faint ticking of the wall clock and the distant murmur of the city outside. Clara’s breathing gradually slowed, matching his. She felt safe here, wrapped in his arms, even if the frustration from work still lingered like a shadow in the back of her mind.
Marcus held her close, one hand gently stroking her back while the other cradled the nape of her neck. After a while, he shifted slightly, tilting his head down to look at her. With careful fingers, he lifted her chin, bringing her face up to meet his. Her eyes were still a little glassy, a mix of lingering irritation and vulnerability that made his chest tighten with affection.
He leaned in slowly, giving her every chance to pull away, and landed a soft kiss on her lips.
Clara let out a soft moan at the contact quiet, involuntary, a small sound of surrender and relief all at once. The kiss was gentle at first, barely more than a brush of warmth, but it melted something inside her. Her hands came up to rest on his chest, fingers curling lightly into the fabric of his shirt as she kissed him back. The tension in her shoulders eased further, and for the first time that evening, the knot of resentment in her stomach began to loosen.
Marcus pulled back just enough to rest his forehead against hers, his breath warm against her skin. "There you are," he whispered, a small smile tugging at his lips. "My Clara. Not the one who’s tearing herself apart over Katherine’s nonsense. Just you."
She let out a shaky little laugh, the sound muffled between them. "I’m sorry... I didn’t mean to dump all of this on you again."
"You didn’t dump anything," he murmured, brushing his thumb across her cheek to wipe away a stray tear she hadn’t realized had fallen. "You’re allowed to feel frustrated. You’re allowed to be angry. But you’re not allowed to convince yourself you’re invisible when you’re the brightest thing in my world."
Clara’s eyes fluttered closed as another soft kiss followed this one lingering a little longer, deeper, filled with the quiet reassurance she hadn’t known she needed. She moaned again, softer this time, the sound vibrating against his mouth. Her body relaxed fully against him, arms sliding up to wrap around his neck as she let herself get lost in the moment.
Marcus’s hands moved to her waist, pulling her closer until there was no space left between them. He kissed her slowly, patiently, as if he had all the time in the world to remind her she was wanted, she was seen, she was loved. When he finally drew back, he didn’t go far his lips brushed her forehead, then her temple, then the tip of her nose in a trail of tender affection.....
