Chapter 185 - 137_3
Xie Wanqing’s fingertips trembled slightly as she watched him force a smile at her.
There was a hint of despair in that smile, and she found herself somewhat lost in it, until she heard him say, "It’s sick. Could you please be kinder to it?"
Under her thumb was his strong and powerful heartbeat, not at all like someone who was sick.
But he indeed kept coughing up blood.
Xie Wanqing swallowed, momentarily at a loss for words.
She had reasoned with him until she was hoarse and had even cursed him in her utmost fury.
To escape from his side, she had done everything possible and even things that weren’t.
Yet, it still led to this situation.
They both were almost at a point of no return.
If she had known earlier, she...
Xie Wanqing closed her eyes.
Even if she had known today would come, what could she have done about it?
"Please let go," she almost begged, "Let everything from my past life be like a dream. Can’t you give up?"
Lu Ziyuan lowered his eyes, "Not even if I die."
"I’ve consummated the marriage with him," Xie Wanqing said.
"It doesn’t matter."
Upon hearing her mention consummation, he was no longer enraged, and his expression became calm as water. Yet, his eyes revealed a murderous intent, and he said slowly, "I will wash away this disgrace with blood."
"..." Such stubbornness left Xie Wanqing speechless.
But what could she do? She couldn’t fight, nor could she hide.
She even fully believed that even if she hadn’t stepped out today and had stayed obediently in the Pei Family mansion, he would have still appeared before her, undeterred.
"What do you want to leave me alone?" She gave a desolate smile, nearing despair, "Why can’t you just allow me to live a peaceful life?"
Lu Ziyuan didn’t feel any better than she did. After vomiting blood, his face already looked terrible, and upon hearing this, waves rose again in his heart, which he forcefully suppressed.
"Do you forget? That day at the villa, I gave you a chance."
He was very close, and his unique sense of oppression was heavy. Ordinarily, Xie Wanqing would have tried to evade, but now, she merely stood there numbly, letting him approach.
"Wanwan, you should keep dreaming," he placed his chin in the crook of her shoulder and gently sniffed, saying, "If you could see what I became after you left, you would understand why I can’t let go."
No matter what situation they ended up in, he couldn’t let go.
"Do you know what I thought about during the two hours I was affected by the aphrodisiac powder?"
"I thought about you, wanted to go to the Duke Mansion to find you, wanted to kiss you..."
Lu Ziyuan’s adam’s apple bobbed slightly, "...In the end, afraid of angering you again, I didn’t go."
He prided himself on being tough and decisive, never lingering unnecessarily, but when it came to this girl, he hesitated and was cautious.
If he were his former self, he wouldn’t have let things reach such a state.
From the day his memories awakened, she could only stay by his side, her movement restricted to within three zhang.
He couldn’t possibly let her go back and share a bed with another man.
But she threatened him with her life!
He was helpless; indeed, her life and death were his weak spots, something he feared immensely.
Lu Ziyuan chuckled softly, pressing his lips against her neck, caressing slowly. For a moment, he thought about biting her hard, wishing to see her flesh torn and blood flowing, but in the end, he only took a deep breath.
"I’m holding back very painfully, truly."
Having taken the same drug, he forcibly suppressed his desires, yet the girl he was obsessed with became the antidote for another man.
This was something he himself had orchestrated.
He couldn’t even blame her.
The mere thought made him hateful beyond measure.
Xie Wanqing stood motionless, letting him succumb to his madness.
It wasn’t until she saw him start undoing his belt that her pupils contracted abruptly.
Lu Ziyuan pressed her wrist with one hand, holding her palm against his chest, while the other hand undid his belt.
Soon after, he guided her hand downward, sliding towards his waist and abdomen.
He sighed softly, clasping her stiff wrist, "Touch me."
Beneath her fingers were his tense abdominal muscles. Xie Wanqing’s numb heart was once again struck powerfully. She moved stiffly, hearing his breath suddenly hitch, then grow heavier.
"Lu Ziyuan," her lips trembled lightly, "Is lust the only thing you know?"
Lu Ziyuan chuckled lowly, "I know many things, but I only lust for you."
He pinned her wrist, continuing downwards, capturing her earlobe with his lips, and said, "The remnants of the poison are not gone yet, Wanwan, don’t be partial, help me once, won’t you?"
"Do you like that man’s pretentiousness?"
"No problem. As long as you like it, I can be gentle too."