Chapter 106: She hit me first.
Selena
The evening was quiet, but there was nothing peaceful about it, because the silence that filled the cave felt heavy and unmoving, as though the air itself had settled into something thick that pressed gently but persistently against my chest.
I sat where I had been for what felt like hours, my back resting against the cold stone wall, my body still while my thoughts drifted in slow, tired circles that never quite reached anywhere new.
The sting on my cheek had long faded into something dull and distant, a faint reminder rather than an active pain, and I found that it barely mattered when compared to the deeper ache that had taken root inside me over the past months.
That ache had changed in a way I could not ignore.
It no longer clawed at me or demanded to be felt, and it no longer rose sharply enough to steal my breath or make my chest tighten in panic.
Instead, it had grown quiet, settling into something steady and constant, like a wound that had stopped bleeding but had never truly begun to heal, and in that quiet, it felt more permanent than anything that had come before it.
I did not move when I heard them approaching, because I had already learned the sound of their footsteps well enough to recognize them without needing to see them, and there was a time when that sound alone would have made something warm rise inside me, something hopeful and soft that I had not even realized I was holding onto.
Now, it only made me aware.
Three sets of footsteps, steady and unhurried, filled the space outside before entering the cave, bringing with them a presence that shifted the air without effort, and even without looking, I could feel the weight of it as it settled around me.
They did not call my name.
They did not need to.
I lifted my head slowly, my gaze moving over them as they stepped inside, taking in Kael first, then Edris, then Ronan, and finally Nyra who followed just behind them, her presence sharp in a way that always felt deliberate.
Kael moved forward first, his steps measured, his expression calm in a way that had come to mean something else entirely, something controlled and distant that never brought anything good with it.
"We gave you an order," he said, his voice even and steady, carrying no raised emotion and yet leaving no space for misunderstanding. "And you chose to ignore it."
I held his gaze without flinching, because there was nothing in me that wanted to step back anymore, and nothing in me that felt the need to soften what I had done.
"I did not ignore it," I replied quietly. "I chose differently."
The words were simple, but I felt the shift that followed them, subtle but real, like a line had been crossed that could not be easily stepped back from.
Ronan’s gaze sharpened slightly, a brief flicker of something unexpected passing through his expression before it disappeared, while Edris did not hesitate long enough to consider it.
"You attacked her," he said, his tone firmer now, edged with disapproval that sat closer to irritation than concern. "That was not your choice to make."
"She hit me first," I answered, my voice remaining calm, not raised, not defensive, simply stating what had happened.
Nyra let out a small sound behind them, something dismissive, but Kael did not turn toward her, and his focus remained entirely on me.
"That does not matter," he said.
I met his gaze steadily.
"It matters to me."
The silence that followed stretched between us, not loud or dramatic, but filled with a weight that settled into the space and lingered there, pressing against something unspoken.
"You do not get to decide what matters," Edris said as he stepped closer, his presence firm and unyielding as it closed the distance between us. "You are not in that position anymore."
I looked at him, really looked at him, and found that the fear that used to rise so easily in moments like this was no longer there in the same way.
"I know exactly what position I am in," I said.
There was no anger in my voice, no challenge, no attempt to provoke anything further, and that seemed to unsettle them more than if I had argued back.
For a moment, none of them spoke.
Nyra shifted slightly behind them, her irritation more visible now, her patience thinning as the conversation did not move in the direction she wanted.
"She is trying to be clever," she said. "You should remind her where she stands."
I did not look at her immediately, because she was not the one I was speaking to.
"You wanted me to understand," I said, my gaze returning to Kael, steady and clear. "You wanted me to see that I have nothing here."
I took a slow breath before continuing.
"No power. No say. No one."
The words felt heavier as I spoke them, but not because they hurt more, and rather because they no longer felt like something I was resisting.
"And you were right."
Something shifted in the space between us, subtle but real, and I did not stop there.
"It also means something else," I continued, my voice still calm, still steady, even as something deeper moved beneath it. "It means I have been a fool."
Their attention sharpened.
"I have been a fool for loving you," I said, the words quiet but clear. "For trusting you. For believing that any of what we shared meant more than what you have shown me."
Ronan’s jaw tightened.
Edris’s expression hardened.
Kael did not move, but I could feel his focus settle on me more heavily.
"But not anymore. I just don’t care what you do or don’t fo." I added.
The cave felt smaller somehow, the air tighter.
"And if you think you hate me," I went on, my voice gaining the slightest edge, not loud, but no longer soft either, "then you should imagine how much I resent you. All three of you."
The words landed harder than anything I had said before.
Nyra shifted behind them, clearly taken aback, but I did not look at her yet.
"I am still here because you saved my life," I said, my gaze steady on them. "More than once. I am not blind to that."
I paused, letting that settle.
"But do not mistake that for weakness."
Silence followed, heavy and charged.
Then I turned my head slowly, my eyes meeting Nyra’s for the first time.
"And if your plaything, of any other toy you choose to play with," I said, my voice quiet but sharp enough to cut, "ever tries to talk down to me again..."
Nyra stiffened instantly.
"I will not hesitate to put her where she belongs."
The cave went still.
No one spoke.
No one moved.
For a moment, it felt like everything had shifted beyond repair.
Then the bond reacted.
A sharp pull twisted inside my chest, tight and wrong, forcing my breath to catch as something deep and unseen strained against what had just been said.
Ronan went still.
Edris’s focus broke for a second.
Kael’s eyes sharpened instantly.
They felt it.
Lyra stirred within me, restless and certain.
There, she said. The bond is not breaking. It is fighting this.
I swallowed slowly, steadying myself, even as the feeling lingered.
Kael stepped closer, slower now, more deliberate, as though trying to understand something he could not see.
"What did you just feel?" he asked.
I shook my head.
"Nothing."
It was a lie.
But I did not care to explain.
Ronan exhaled quietly, running a hand through his hair, something unsettled flickering across his face before he forced it away. Edris’s jaw tightened again, like he needed to hold on to something solid.
"It does not matter," he said, more firmly now. "Whatever this is, it changes nothing."
Maybe he believed that.
Maybe he needed to.
But Kael was still looking at me.
And for a brief moment, something slipped through.
Something softer.
Something I had not seen in a long time.
Gone almost immediately.
But I had seen it.
And that was enough to make something in my chest ache in a way that had nothing to do with the bond.
"Stay here," Kael said at last, his voice returning to something cold and controlled. "You do not leave this cave unless we say so."
I nodded once.
Not in submission.
Not in agreement.
Just acknowledgment.
They turned to leave.
Edris brushed past me without a glance.
Ronan hesitated for the smallest moment, his body tensing as though something in him resisted the silence, but he said nothing and followed.
Nyra lingered, her eyes sharp on me, unsettled in a way she could not hide.
Then she turned and left too.
The cave fell quiet again.
I leaned back slowly against the stone, closing my eyes as I let out a breath I had been holding.
