After I Was Erased by the System, She Went Mad

Su Huan sat on the sofa for a long time before finally making up her mind to stand up. After returning to her room, she took a shower and changed into a light dress.

Looking at herself in the mirror, she took a deep breath, "If you say the wrong thing, apologize. If you do something wrong, stand straight and take the beating. Absolutely cannot make Xiaoyu angrier!"

She muttered to herself several times before taking her crutch and slowly moving to Shen Xiaoyu's bedroom door, raising her hand to knock.

The room was completely silent with no response.

Su Huan knocked again, but still waited in vain for an answer.

Guessing that Shen Xiaoyu didn't want to deal with her, Su Huan didn't continue knocking but found a more comfortable position to stand by the door.

"Sorry Xiaoyu, I said the wrong thing just now." She apologized humbly, "That wasn't my intention. I know you feel guilty about Shi Qiubai. We owe her two lives that we can never repay in this lifetime. I know Qiao Si'en looks very similar to Shi Qiubai, but you would never treat her as a substitute. Even if you unconsciously did so at first, once you realized it, you would correct your attitude."

Su Huan said, becoming aggrieved.

"But I'm just jealous of her. She's luckier than me and Shi Qiubai—she can be in the same world as you, see you every day, talk to you, eat with you. If it weren't for the system, you might have fallen in love with her and married her.

Just thinking about you forming a new family with her makes me insanely jealous!"

Su Huan took a deep breath, forcing herself to calm down.

"I don't know what my mistakes can make up for. I can only keep telling you I love you. I thought you'd be somewhat moved, but you weren't. You acted like you didn't hear, even eager to drive me away."

As she spoke, her eyes reddened, and sadness overwhelmed her. The fear and despair of losing Shen Xiaoyu almost spilled over.

"I'm afraid of being separated from you, but just now I realized I'm more afraid that you don't love me anymore. Even if you really got together with someone else, I would find a way to win you back." Her voice trembled, with a hoarse quality, "But if you fell in love with Shi Qiubai, what should I do?"

A person she could see, she could fight for and compete with, but what about someone who had already disappeared?

How could she compete?

The more Su Huan thought about it, the more desperate she became. Hearing no movement inside, she knocked again, "Xiaoyu, what should I do?"

What exactly did she need to do to win her back?

Sobbing sounds passed through the door into the room. Shen Xiaoyu sat on the bed edge, her eyes reddening with her words.

Shi Qiubai was an unspeakable regret—just thinking about her brought sadness.

Su Huan had tried to make amends within her ability, but it was all useless. The Shi Qiubai with memories was gone. No matter how many times the plot refreshed, Shi Qiubai would never be herself again.

Shen Xiaoyu raised her hand to cover her eyes. How could she not know that what Su Huan said was true?

At the very beginning, she had indeed treated Qiao Si'en as the former Shi Qiubai, sometimes even feeling confused, thinking the person being gently taught by her was Shi Qiubai.

But later one day, when she sensed Qiao Si'en's feelings for her, she suddenly realized she was wrong.

Qiao Si'en was Qiao Si'en. She wasn't anyone else, and no one could replace Shi Qiubai. Not even the constantly refreshed Shi Qiubai.

The person who would act spoiled with her and call her "Sister" had forever remained in that disappeared world.

Tears flowed from between her fingers, and Shen Xiaoyu's whole body trembled.

Her harshness toward Su Huan—wasn't it also directed at her former self?

Both people inside and outside were crying, sadness continuously spreading.

That night, neither of them slept well.

The next day when Shen Xiaoyu went out, she saw Su Huan leaning against the door wearing thin clothes.

She had dark circles under her eyes, her face slightly pale, looking much more haggard. Hearing the door open, Su Huan perked up and put on a faint smile, "Xiaoyu."

She had cried for a long time and said many words last night, so her voice was also hoarse.

"I'm sorry." Su Huan apologized solemnly, "I lost my head. I shouldn't have said those things. You have every right to be angry, and I'll listen to you and move out as soon as possible."

The more well-behaved she acted, the more complicated Shen Xiaoyu's feelings became, "I didn't mean that."

Yesterday she had been driven by guilt and embarrassed anger after being exposed, which made her say to move out quickly. Now that rationality had returned, she wasn't so urgent.

Thinking this, Shen Xiaoyu restated, "I have things to do today, so I won't look at apartments. Moving out... let's talk about it after you find work."

She turned to leave and was about to go out when Su Huan's urgent voice came from behind.

"Don't go out with Qiao Si'en!"

Shen Xiaoyu stopped, turned to look at her with suspicious eyes, "Are you ordering me?"

"No!" Su Huan hurriedly explained, "I, I don't mean that. I, I didn't want to interfere with you. I just, just..."

She stammered, unable to speak clearly.

She just didn't want Shen Xiaoyu to go to the amusement park with Qiao Si'en, regardless of the purpose!

But facing Shen Xiaoyu's eyes, Su Huan could only hold back. They had just fought yesterday over Qiao Si'en's issue. If they fought again today because of her, it would seem like she really cared a lot about Qiao Si'en.

[Hilarious, aren't you dying of concern?] The system mocked, [Qiao Si'en just used a basic attack and you've already used flash and ultimate skills. Players like you would die first in games!]

Su Huan ignored the system and continued, "I just feel insecure. I'm afraid you'll accept Qiao Si'en."

While she couldn't see, Qiao Si'en had spent several years with Shen Xiaoyu. Their understanding wasn't less than hers and Shen Xiaoyu's.

Honestly, given the current situation, Su Huan didn't know how much chance she had of winning.

Shen Xiaoyu paused, indifferently withdrew her gaze, "Who I accept—what does it have to do with you?" This update ıs available on NoveI-Fire.ɴet

She turned toward the living room, "Su Huan, please know your place. I made it very clear to you yesterday—the only connection between us is An'an. Besides that, there's nothing else."

Su Huan limped along behind her, unwilling to give up, "Not now, but what about the future?"

"There's no possibility in the future either!" Shen Xiaoyu was merciless, "We ended long ago. Once, twice, but not thrice—I won't fall into the same pit three times!"

She'd die before accepting Su Huan again!

"What about as a mistress?"

"That's right! Even as a—"

Realizing what she had just said, Shen Xiaoyu's voice abruptly stopped. She turned around sharply with complete disbelief on her face.

"What?"

"As long as I can stay by your side, whether as a third party, fourth party, or mistress, I'm fine with anything." Su Huan bit her lip and added, "If you still won't accept that, we could also be f— mmm..."

Before she could finish, her mouth was covered.

Shen Xiaoyu stood in front of her with narrowed eyes, glaring at her with moisture in her gaze, "What nonsense are you spouting? Am I that kind of person?"

Friends with benefits... she could actually say such things, truly shameless.

Su Huan blinked and nudged Shen Xiaoyu with her body, looking completely innocent.

They had already done it, so what was there to fear about talking? There were no outsiders at home either. Although they never talked about it before, there were traces of them everywhere in the house. Back then she thought Shen Xiaoyu felt secure, so how did her skin become so thin after changing worlds?

Although Shen Xiaoyu couldn't hear her thoughts, she could tell what she was thinking from her expression.

Shen Xiaoyu glared at her irritably, released the hand covering her mouth, and wiped it disdainfully on her clothes. But unexpectedly, this lifted up her nightgown, and her hand touched soft skin at her waist.

The contact was electric. She stiffened all over, wanting to pull her hand back like she'd been shocked.

But as soon as her hand left, Su Huan grabbed her wrist.

She stared into Shen Xiaoyu's eyes and slowly pressed her hand against her lower back, while she herself stepped closer, letting their bodies completely touch.

"A mistress should have a mistress's awareness," Su Huan said. "As long as I can stay, I'm willing to do anything."

After speaking, she slowly moved closer.

Shen Xiaoyu's heart pounded as she held her breath, watching her approach and then gently place a kiss on her lips, light as a dragonfly touching water, breaking away immediately.

"It's getting late. You should go find An'an," she smiled.

Shen Xiaoyu instinctively made a sound of acknowledgment that sounded quite disappointed.

Su Huan made a questioning sound, "What's wrong?"

She quickly realized, "Nothing."

Shen Xiaoyu turned and left. Even after going downstairs and getting in the car, she was still immersed in that gentle kiss.

"That's it? Then what was all that hesitation for? Made me expect something," Shen Xiaoyu muttered quietly.

"Expect what?" The driving Qiao Si'en asked in confusion, "Xiaoyu, what were you muttering about just now?"

Only then did Shen Xiaoyu come back to her senses. Thinking of her muttering, she laughed awkwardly and brushed it off, "Nothing, just thinking about work."

Worried that Qiao Si'en would continue asking, she quickly changed the subject, "Why did you come so early today? I thought since you went back so late yesterday, you'd sleep in today."

"I don't have the habit of sleeping in, and didn't we agree yesterday to accompany An'an to the amusement park? It wouldn't be good to go late." Qiao Si'en smiled gently, taking advantage of the red light to reach for a paper bag from the passenger seat and hand it to Shen Xiaoyu.

"This is breakfast I made. I didn't know what you wanted to eat today, so I made a bit of everything. Try it and see if it tastes good."

Shen Xiaoyu opened the bag to find it almost completely full, and was surprised.

"So much—what time did you get up this morning? And this is too much, I can't finish it all by myself."

"Not very early. These breakfasts are simple and don't take much time. If you can't finish them, save them for later to bring to Auntie and An'an. Children all like pastries, and An'an is especially a pastry lover—she definitely won't refuse food. Auntie has to take care of An'an and can't eat properly, so these are perfect for them to snack on."

Qiao Si'en had thought of everything, and Shen Xiaoyu couldn't say much more.

She silently ate breakfast with complicated feelings.

To be fair, Qiao Si'en would make a good partner—anyone with her would be happy.

If there hadn't been the transmigration and conquest business, if she had met Qiao Si'en, she would have liked her too. But fate was cruel. After her experiences, she no longer held romantic fantasies and just wanted to raise her daughter well.

But since Qiao Si'en didn't know, she couldn't break through this window paper either. What if she didn't have those thoughts? Then wouldn't it be awkward?

It was all Su Huan's fault, bringing up whatever shouldn't be mentioned. Now everyone was unhappy!

Shen Xiaoyu bit hard into her sandwich, cursing internally.

Qiao Si'en seemed unaware of her troubles, smiling as she shared interesting stories from her trip, naturally throwing out topics to make the atmosphere in the car more harmonious.

Meanwhile, at home, Su Huan, who hadn't slept all night, curled up in bed without any sleepiness.

As soon as she closed her eyes, her mind was filled with images of Shen Xiaoyu and Qiao Si'en leaving together, as if once they left, they would never return.

The system boredly circled above her head, [The affection level stopped at -70%. Are you really confident about completing the mission?]

Anyway, its heart was now feeling cold...

Wait, it didn't have a heart!

Fine, now its system was feeling cold too.

[I don't know.]

Su Huan couldn't figure out what Shen Xiaoyu was thinking now, and even began to wonder if perhaps her leaving would make Shen Xiaoyu happier.