Chapter 98: Wouldn’t Change if He Could
Benton rushed from the house and to the gate. Not even willing to wait for the village guards to open it, he leapt over the fifteen-foot-tall structure. He needed to get away. He needed to think.
First, though, he needed to commit to his decision. His new decision, not the old one that he reneged on.
Ugh.
“System, purchase whatever is necessary to heal Jin LiJuan. I confirm whatever you need me to confirm. Don’t even show me how many Shop Points are left.”
The System was nothing if not compliant when it came to such requests. A set of seven pills appeared in his ring.
Had he done the right thing? If right were defined as the act that was in the best interests of the sect, then no, he hadn’t. Only by defining right as the choice that felt the most emotionally satisfying would he be able to answer yes.
He kept doing things like that. No matter how many times he told himself he needed to be harder, to adapt to the fact that he was living in a harsh might-makes-right cultivation world where a tiny mistake may destroy him, he kept bending. Every. Single. Time.
Well, at least, he’d managed to kill that Foundation Establishment cultivator. What was his name? Feng Chun. No. Teng Chun. But that was only because Benton didn’t have a choice. The guy almost killed Zou Tian and would almost definitely have killed all of them.
Besides, look where that got Benton. A Golden Core cultivator would be coming after his head in the not too far distant future. When Teng Chun’s father arrived, everything Benton had built would be destroyed if he didn’t grow strong enough by then.
If the beast tide didn’t get him first.
And what was he doing? Using every single resource at his disposal to grow stronger? No. Choosing the path that made him feel good.
For the first time since transmigrating, he truly felt like a failure.