Chapter 98 - 97: My Position
Zhang Zhe was silently smoking while Gao Yuan arranged belts of ammunition beside the machine gun, finally finding the time to ponder if he could go look for Luo Xingyu.
Going to find Luo Xingyu now would mean deserting, no matter the excuse or how valid his reasons might be, leaving his post at this moment made him a deserter.
Gao Yuan did not want to die, truly did not.
But Gao Yuan wanted even less to be a deserter.
Although he was not a soldier and his comrades were not soldiers either—they were all just volunteers, that’s all.
Yet Gao Yuan still didn’t want to be a deserter.
After a brief hesitation and struggle, Gao Yuan decided to just let it be—if he was to die, then so be it.
In fact, Gao Yuan was embarrassed to desert.
Embarrassed to abandon his comrades with whom he had shared life and death for the sake of his own survival, it was that simple; hence, Gao Yuan’s decision to share life and death with his comrades was not out of any noble sentiment, but rather because he was embarrassed to just flee.
Sometimes, you see, the reason a person chooses to face death calmly is just that simple, merely out of embarrassment. How ridiculous is that?