Book 8: Chapter 96: Essence
Perhaps because his mindset had changed, or perhaps because he had passed through two Quest Worlds in a row, the dull life Qin Lun lived recently—shuttling only between the Training Ground and his Villa—gave him a feeling of fullness inside.
Apostles were different from ordinary people. Ordinary people usually ran around making a living and felt life was simple and monotonous, always hoping for a bit of adventure and excitement. Apostles, on the other hand, lived on the edge of life and death all year round, so they cherished the break without adventures even more. Most of them either spent their time on entertainment or on intense training.
However, Qin Lun and his kind of Serial Killers were different from ordinary Apostles. Because of their abnormal psychology, everyday life felt like prison to them. They were always seeking adventures that would stimulate their minds; only unknown challenges could awaken their sense of existence.
That such a dull and simple life could create a sense of fulfillment in Qin Lun’s heart was truly a strange thing.
But compared to Joey, who now took a perverse pleasure in the art of killing, Qin Lun had one advantage: his personality had a strong tendency to accept circumstances as they came. He wasn’t troubled by his current strange psychological state. After brief reflection, he even decided not to give himself a psychological evaluation, simply living by the day.
Qin Lun vaguely sensed that his current state was rather abnormal. Letting this continue would have unpredictable effects on both him and Joey. To put it bluntly, their emotional factors were gradually growing richer; they were slowly starting to develop thoughts normal people would have.
It was hard to say whether this change was good or bad. In fact, this wasn’t the first time Qin Lun had experienced such a transformation. Whether in his childhood or during his time in prison, he had undergone shifts both from normal person to Serial Killer, and from Serial Killer back to normal.
Yet every time he went through this transformation, by the final stage, he would lose most of the memories of that period, retaining only fragmented images. It was like reinstalling a computer system: most of the stored content would be erased, or those memories would be hidden in a backup drive that neither he nor Joey could access.
The only feeling he and Joey retained was that every time this transformation ended, the people in the prison—whether guards or inmates—would look at him with even more fear, as if he were a demon wearing human skin.
