Chapter 87
ASHAL
I thought I had it under control. Actually, I did. I am not a slave to my health condition as much as I would like to believe. Before the disaster strikes, I usually have an option; flee or fight. The wise thing to do is usually to flee, to leave from the environment or leave the person triggering my anger.
It’s usually easier to do with my family, especially my brothers. With strangers, I tend to ignore the smart choice of fleeing and skip straight to fighting.
I knew the consequences when I got into my car and went to find Maddie while seething with anger. I could have stopped myself instead of entertaining the delusion that I could have a talk with her and get her to admit her mistake.
Maddie is not built like most girls. She is very defensive, foul-mouthed, rude, bold, fearless most times, annoying and so much more. She is the type to defend her mistake not own up to them. I should have avoided her and let my brothers fix the mess she created in solidarity to her sister but I didn’t. I didn’t listen. I acted and almost maimed Olivia’s sister.
It’s been two weeks since Maddie was discharged from the hospital but I can’t get that day out of my head. How would I have forgiven myself for ruining the lives of the daughters of the Dunn family? How would I have layered my betrayal to Olivia with the maiming or even death of her sister all in one day?
The guilt has been eating away at me. I feel terrible. I feel like a monster and a cheat at the same time. That’s part of the reason why I can’t face Olivia. Her family has not mentioned anything about Maddie’s accident so Liv is only pissed at me for betraying her trust but when I look at her remorsefully, I am loathing myself for everything that transpired with Cree and Maddie.
"How is she?" I ask the doctor after he has examined Liv. "How is our baby?"
"Mother and child are both fine. You have to keep her away from anything that induces stress, both physical and emotional. This is a crucial stage of her pregnancy."
"I understand."
Olivia glances at me from her bed with dull eyes. I thank the doctor and have one of my security personnel see him off. When I edge close to her bed, Liv puts up a weak hand.