Chapter 155: I would like to hide myself in a hole now
Cass didn’t know how to get himself out of what he’d just done.
He knew that he’d crossed a line. He knew that something had changed now that he was calmer, less emotional, and less...aggressive. He just...didn’t know what to do in response. He’d never had to recover a relationship after he’d exploded. He just...dropped it. Left it before he had to face his own actions.
Granted, they hadn’t gotten into a fist fight like he thought they were going to, but he had exploded. Emotional. Needy. Strange. This wasn’t like Cass. Therefore, he had no playbook to work out of. He’d always put down stories where the main character freaked out and had an emotional response to what they were going through. He didn’t like it. He thought it was childish.
Yet here he was, doing the exact same thing. Into someone else’s husband’s arms. Even if she had given permission, that didn’t mean any of this was okay. He was still feeling a lot of feelings, and that was one of them that lingered. Damn it.
He felt like he was having some trouble breathing now that the tears had dried. He was too embarrassed to raise his head from Draken’s chest. He didn’t want to make eye contact. He didn’t want to even acknowledge what had just happened. He’d unloaded on Draken about his own personal issues. Nothing was related to Lord Blackburn, or could be traced back to him. That was a big no no.
He was already worried about being fucking burned at the stake. The only thing he could be grateful for was the fact that Draken was the least religious out of everyone in this damn mansion. That was his only saving grace.
In fairness, Cass didn’t really know Lord Ridgewood’s stance on the temple, but he would hazard a guess that since he was friends with Vespertine that he was pretty invested.
Fuck. Cass was lucky that no one really knew anything about Lord Blackburn, or this could be even worse. It was awful that Lord Blackburn had been isolated, but fucking hell was that to his benefit right now.
Cass could feel his chest tighten, his breathing becoming erratic, and Draken tightened his grip on him.