Chapter 189
Chapter 189
I steadied my breathing, still intoxicated by the afterglow of battle.
Even though I had sealed away the Firelight Twinblades and placed restrictions on myself, this time, I had fully unleashed my skills in close combat. The Menoan Guard Commander was strong enough to take it all.
Back in my days as an Imperial Guard cadet, I used to have three or four chances a month to vent my aggression. There were frequent real combat missions, too.
One of the hardest times I had in Akbaran was during my dispatch to the Cracia Academy. I thought I was going to lose my mind back then.
Now that I had let it all out, everything felt quiet.
I closed my eyes and checked within myself. The overwhelming urges that had once surged so violently they threatened to burst outward were now still. One day, they would rise again, but not for a while. My emotions had settled, and I could see the world with clearer reason.
Looking at it this way... I really had drifted too far from what was normal. My aggression had been on the higher side among the cadets, but they had all shared similar tendencies and dispositions.
However, the people I had met in Border City—while far from normal themselves—had rarely struggled to control their aggression like I did. I was practically the only one.
"You’ve turned from a monster into a person."
Ragnata’s voice came from inside the duffel bag.
"I’m starting to feel the urge to rip that tongue out."