Chapter 121: X
It was dark and I could also feel the coldness consuming my entire body.
Where am I? Why do I feel like I’m lost? Where’s Peggy? And Caden? Where are they?
I opened my eyes and I realized I was in a fetal position. I stood up and turned around.
It was dark but I can see a single light in front of me, but even wallowing into the zeal of light, I am still aware that darkness is always just a heartbeat away.
I always question myself why. I always had this feeling that I am not the only one inside my head. Ever since my mother died, I could hear the voices in my head.
Every hour of the day I asked myself, why do I feel like I am trapped inside my mind and that I am stuck in a never-ending conversation with myself, but still couldn’t figure out the explanations to every question.
Peggy, Caden, dad, and my friends, I always knew they were there for me. But sometimes, my mind disagrees with that.
Why am I here in this cold dark place? Why am I alone? I felt like I was awake but not.
The last thing I remembered was attacking Andrew. That moment I felt like someone suddenly pulled me into the dark. Was it one of my other selves? Am I really like Alora?
I’m lost again. I’m sure Peggy was already worried. She might be crying right now, waiting for me to return.
I knew I had five identities hiding inside me. Sometimes I wonder if they are really just products of my imagination. I question myself, who is the real Jayden? What if one of my alternate identities is the real me? Then who am I?
Those questions remained unanswered until now. Am I this weak? Peggy would get mad at me for thinking about any of this. Right now, I have to do everything so I can go back.