Chapter 555 I Don’t Know What ’Mother’ Is
The dawn came gently, creeping slowly through the cracks of the half-destroyed palace walls. The golden light was like a soft brush on Beelzebub's face, slowly waking her from a deep sleep—the first sleep she truly felt since her existence began.
Beelzebub opened her eyes slowly, still lying in the warm embrace of Fitran. She gazed at the face of the man who was still asleep, so calm and peaceful. Beelzebub's heart beat slowly, filled with a strange feeling that she was beginning to recognize as love. But along with that feeling came deep fear and anxiety.
Slowly, she sat up and touched her belly, as if trying to feel whether life was truly growing inside her. Something real yet frightening, a miracle that felt so foreign to her, who had just begun to understand the meaning of being human.
"Fitran..." Beelzebub's voice was soft, her eyes searching for the man, "I don't know what's happening to me." She looked down, feeling her heart pounding. "There is a deep happiness, but at the same time, I also feel very scared."
Fitran turned gently, sitting closer and taking Beelzebub's hand, their fingers intertwining tightly. "Beelzebub," he said in a soothing tone, "I am here. You are not alone. This is all part of your journey. Facing these feelings can be frightening, but remember, I will always be here with you."
Beelzebub looked into Fitran's eyes, filled with sincerity, feeling the warmth seep into her soul. "But I feel like... like I am losing myself," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "I don't even know how to be a good human."
"You just need to be yourself," Fitran replied, gently stroking Beelzebub's head. "Every human goes through this stage, and I believe you will find the light within you. You are stronger than you think. And most importantly, you have me by your side."
Fitran held her hand gently, their fingers intertwined, creating an unbreakable bond. "Beelzebub, you are undergoing a beautiful transformation. Being human means experiencing the entire spectrum of emotions. This happiness and fear are part of the journey, especially when facing something so great and meaningful like this," he expressed with understanding, his eyes shining.
Beelzebub nodded slowly, but tears began to well up in her eyes. "I want to feel ready, as if all of this is within my grasp. But I feel confused; I don't even know what it means to be a mother," her voice trembled, reflecting the vulnerability she had just realized.