Chapter 138: aftermath
Kenny
To say I was pretty embarrassed about how I acted around my prerut stage would be an understatement. I’d have preferred if I hadn’t remembered it. But of course I remember every bit of it and that made me feel a little guilty because I felt like I might have annoyed Jason or made him feel like I wanted him out of this thing we all had.
That wasn’t the case at all. I wasn’t sure of what my alpha’s deal was but now it’s been taken care of. At the beginning of my rut, I could dimly remember how Jason ended up taking the control which I thought I was In control of, and the rest had ended up being history. He ended up controlling the entire thing.
In the past when I had dated alphas, I never spent my ruts with them because I never trusted them enough for that and because I felt like my wolf would never agree to submit in that kind of vulnerable state. However this time with Jason, he ended up fucking me tight in the middle of my rut. Thinking about it right now was making my ear feel hot. Rory had been perfect for me throughout, his presence had grounded me immensely, and I hated that I might have made him feel bad during my Perrut stage when I asked him to not stay beside Jason at that wedding we attended.
Then there’s the wedding which I ruined because I had been unable to control my wolf. Thinking about it alone was giving me a headache and I can see that there’s a lot that I need to work on, and people that I need to apologize to. However, that’s gonna be till later, for now I need to worry about walking without limping. My body hurts; my back felt sore and my thighs muscles felt very stiff. I was currently soaking in a bath which Rory ran for me and it was the most soothing thing ever.
The door opened shortly after that and I cracked my eyes open to see Rory step in. He had on a low pair of pants and nothing else and my eyes dragged over the expanse of skin. It’s crazy that I fucked him for the past three days and I could still feel my cock twitch right now.
"You alright?" He asked on stopping beside the bath and I nodded, eyes dragging over his body again.
"Wanna come in here with me?" I asked when our eyes met again and he narrowed his eyes at me before clicking his tongue.
"Do you really think that’s advisable?" He asked and I sighed and dragged a wet hand through my hair.
"It’s not." I ended up agreeing and he laughed before coming around and taking the rag from me, and then he began to help scrub my back, making a sense of comfort engulfed me.
"I made you feel bad, didn’t I? Like you were giving Jason more attention than me and stuff like that, right?" I asked shortly after a comfortable blanket of silence had settled over us and he paused for a moment before resuming washing my hair.
"Honestly, yeah. But only at the beginning." He rushed to add before I could begin to apologize. "I felt guilty because that was never my intention at all. You’ll always come first and I’ll always love you and want to and..." he was still speaking when I brushed my lips against his.